19 yr old opiate addict

[bmarie0327]

im 19 yrs old and have been addicted to pain pills for about 2 and half years. it startd from having a abortion when i was 17 which not only caused physical pain but alot of emotional pain. most of the time its physical injuries that cause people to get addicted. wit me it was emotional pain and the physical pain came later after i had kept taking them. backaches headaches and being soooo depressed. back then i would just cry n cry till i got ahold of some anykind it didnt matter. they gave me the energy i needed to get up and do simple everyday things. that went on for a good year or so before i attempted suicide (really just a cry for help) and sent myself to detox n rehab and got back to being me. recently after staying clean for 6 months or so i have came back home and relapsed. anytime i know that there is pain meds around i will take them i have no self control when it comes to that. so parents friends n fam that deal with people dont ever take the chance and just leave any around because we will find them atleast the ones like me. its like i loose control of my body bc my mind is just telling me i need the pills. i hate myself for taking them. my source is gonna be ending soon and i know im gonna need help. i have been going through withdraws when i havent got the chance to take them after a day or so but there no where as near as bad as they used to be. i dont know if thats bc know im gonna get more or bc ive gotten stronger from this being my second go around. i just pray to god i dont fight this battle my whole life bc im already sick of it. reading other stories have made me feel like im not alone. please if anybody has any advice or just something to say please reply...

[GoingToMakeIt]

    Sorry about your past, but now it's time to look to your future. Ask yourself if you want to live clean or be hooked. If it's to be clean, set yourself towards that goal. I would recommend learning all I can about the disease called addiction. There is a lot of info in the Health Pages. (top right of this page)Get to know the people and their problems. Learn what helped them and what didn't.
  Do not blame yourself for getting addicted. It's what can be expected of a drug that is addicting. Another HUGE point is to be totally honest about your addiction. Be especially honest to yourself. Let your friends and doctors know of your problem. Don't leave one stone unturned.
     This is a battle for your life & soul. Don't let it win. Also remember that in a war, battles are won & lost. If you fail, get back up immediately. Learn from your mistakes, and again, be honest about it. You can do this. There are many members here that are living proof that it can be done!
    

[tomskat]

Hi and welcome.Congratulations for admitting you have a problema dn fopr wanting to stop.What you have experienced is horrible and traumatic.And actually taking pain pills will cause your pain to be worse.Yes,you need to get off this roller coaster.We've been there and some are still battling with relapses,etc.but you CAN do it.Do you have anyone to talk to at home?Soemone you can confide in?Try local women's shelter's..they can steer you in the right place.s for quitting ct from the pills...yeah,it will be hell for about 72 hours or so,maybe a bit longer.Check out our health pages here-lots of useful info.Stay with us and keep posting!!We're all here t help.Good luck hon.Stay strong!!!~Anne

[janet19]

I have been fighting this monster for most of my life. I am back on them after a few months of clean time. I go to a therapist and to NA. I get a lot out of NA and if anything else I get some suggestions and know I am not alone. I am heading early am tomorrow to go to a suboxone treatment clinic. I am hoping I can get my life back I am so tired of being sick and tired. By the way I am 51.

My son got hooked on some stuff in college and it was a long road, but he made it through. I supported as much as I could. It's hard to give advice to your kids when you are worse off than him.

I am sure you friends and family would support you. Have you told them?  Admitting you have a problem is a good start. Taper off it does help. Go to NA they will treat you like family. There are more than junkies there. I am amazed of stories I hear. These strong people have made it yrs and there habits were far worse than mine.

I wish you all the luck there is. You can beat just fight for you life.