Dont have alot to say right now.....Im just so foggy minded.....and sore....no energy. But life still goes on...all around me. I have let no one else know what is going on with me just yet, except my husband. Which is enough right now. Especially here a holiday time, I refuse to upset my family with this. Because this is not my first time qutting, I am just going to just do it. Tell them later, as I feel better. Its really hard hiding how horrible you feel. Im sure they can see Im not my old self, so I guess......the......Im sick...will have to work for now. Im asking for prayers for me, part of the family is coming over for thanksgiving, I believe I will be at day 5 or 6 on that day. Pray I can pull it off, and make it joyfully thru. This is going to be hard. Plus I have to prepare and cook the day before! Im praying I can get this dinner done.
I dont want to get into a long conversation about this on this post, but I been thinking about this addiction pill thing. Its crazy how some of up get addicted, and others dont. But what puzzles me is......I have researched repeatedly as I keep relapsing & withdrawing, the things these pills are doing to the receptors, and seritonin levels, in our brains, and isnt it true that wether one takes the pills as prescribed, or they take more than prescribed (which is then considered abusing them), it is doing the same thing to the receptors, & serotonin levels in our brains. Right. I mean, the fact is taking these, that is what they effect. So a person that take them as prescibed is still getting the same effects, and this medicine in them percs, & oxy"s, and vics, are still effecting the things in their brains. So...if a person whom has taken the meds for a substancial amount of time, even tho they have taken as prescibed....will not go thru withdrawal, if they decide to quit? Well if so, then why is it said they are not addicted, because they have taken it as prescribed?... I guess the bigger question is....then why are these doctors giving these meds out like this to people? It seems like EVERYONE is having a bad experience with these pills!......OMG, I had to pause for a minute...my body is killing me. Anyways....Im just not seeing the difference in someone who takes it as prescribed...because it is still effecting, and doing the same thing to their brains, just by using them period! From what I have read,....when taking more, or more often, and so on....that allows your brain to receive too much, to fast of the endorphins...right?. But the bottom line is....just taking them at all, is still effecting your brain, because that is how they work, to tell your brain your not in pain. Its just masking it. I know its alot to take in, but I guess Im just mad, that I have gotten myself into this **** hole! This whole mess is soooooo ****** up. Its unbelievable what you go thru to get free of this. Its just crazy!