What will I do differently this time?

[Drew23587]

I have been off and on these boards for a couple years.  The last time I got clean I had 89 days and then relapsed b/c of surgery.  I did not have a good support system in place then and now I have to ask myself the question, "what will I do differently this time to not relapse?"  

I really do not want to be this depressed as I have been off the meds for approx 1 week.  I hate the depression and the anxiety!  Again, I have to ask myself, "what will I do differently this time?".  It is kinda scary to think I am responsible to make sure these things happen.  I can get all the advise on the boards but if I don't do the foot work it will be in vain again...

Thanks for letting me share.

Drew

[Drew23587]

Thanks for posting to me.  I located Smart Recovery Meetings in my area and plan to attend as a start.  

This board has been instrumental in helping me ask myself, "what am I going to do differently?".  All my crying and moaning and relapsing is a sign that I am not following good direction--probably b/c I am trying to do it my way which has gotten me NO WHERE.   I need to take charge (with God's help) and do the right thing which means listening to what the ppl on this board have been saying.

Thanks