31 days clean today

[Leaveurfearsbehind]

It's been a while since I've been on here. Just got home from vacation last night. I was worried about having the energy to survive 6 days at disneyworld but I was able to make it. The last 3 days were tough, my back, legs and feet were killing me but I made it with the help of advil and ice packs. Just wanted to let everyone that I'm still hanging in there. Thanks again for all the help and support!

[Leaveurfearsbehind]

Just like Dorothy said "there's no place like home" I love going but coming back is even better!

[Pat1956100]

Haha, Home Sweet Home.  I bet it feels good.
Great memories though for you and your family.

[Leaveurfearsbehind]

Yes pat it was a family vacation. I really thought about stopping by the beach for a few days to recover but the girls had to get back for school. I've probably been 15-20 times. Stayed 10 days once! I won't ever do that again! Lol. We usually fly but decided to drive this time. Nothing like a 12 hour drive when your hurting! I'm feeling a lot better today.

[Leaveurfearsbehind]

It was tough for sure! That's the worse pain I've had since I've been clean. Im ok with not taking anything as long as I'm not hurting bad.  I did realize that I could make it without pills though. It wasn't comfortable but I did stay clean and that is a lesson I needed to learn. It may not be easy but it is doable.

[Pat1956100]

DISNEYWORLD, you did freaking Disneyworld.  That is fantastic and I just can't imagine doing DISNEYWORLD lol.  I have been going for walks and thought i was doing great lol.  
Amazing and so wonderful that you had a vacation.  Was it a family vacay??
I guess you didn't think of going somewhere to suntan on a beach?
I am very impressed and hoping I have half of your energy on day 31.
Congrats to you and welcome home.

[Sonrissa]

Congrats on your 31 days of clean time! And wow! 6 days at Disneyworld! Are you trying to be a saint? LOL! That is simply amazing! Take care and keep moving forward! You are an inspiration to us all! Great job!

[clean_in_ks]

31 DAYS!!  Yeah!!!!!! (but who's countin right?    WRONG. .HAHAHA!)

I can so relate to your comments about pain.  I started off taking mine for years, for very legit pain.  They helped soooo much.  And I was able to take them as prescribed for many years.  BUT, as my tolerance to the meds (that the Rx tells us will happen to us) increased, and my pain got worse, so did the number of pills and now I, too,
cannot "go back" to that point where I took them as prescribed and reaped the benefits of the relief.
Just last week, I had been doing much more than I usually have been able to do, and I said outloud to my hubby, "man, I sure wish I wasn't chemically wired like I am and could just take a lortab for this horrible pain".  But...you know the answer to that one.  I cannot GO BACK!!  If I even let my brain consider it or feed that stupid, sick thought for a minute, I would be risking relapse.  So.....now, me too, I have to discipline myself to stretch, take my otc pain meds as faithfully as I took my lortabs (ha), be consistent, try new things, cause a lot of other addicts that are recovering are in pain too.  We just have to give ourselves time (gag) to heal, discover and try new ways to deal with our pain.  I also have had to admit and accept I may always hurt to some degree.  So, then my new challenge is learning what I'm gonna do NEW by trial and error.  We'll get there.  I SO related to you.
And it made my legs and back hurt just listening to you talk about DisneyWorld and I wasn't even standing in those long freakin lines!!
Blessings to you and Happy 31 days again~

[Leaveurfearsbehind]

Thanks! I feel much better today. I'm just not use to walking 6-7 miles and being on my feet for 12+ hours a day! The urge to use just for the high is pretty much gone but when I start hurting that's another story. I'm just working on getting in better shape and hoping that will help with my back pain. Stretching really helps but it's hard to get motivated to do it. It was so much easier to just take a pill and know I would be pain free in 30 minutes but doing that only covers up the real problem. It's definateley not the answer to the problem. It's scary that doctors think a pill is a "cure all" for everything!

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 31 days!  That is a great accomplishment.  Your brain may still be playing some games with you and hopefully your pain will decrease the longer you are clean.  Your doing great!!

[Leaveurfearsbehind]

It really has started flying by! At first I was counting everyday but it has definateley gotten better. Some days are great but then I start to hurt and it really hits me why I started taking them in the first place. I wished that I would have been able to take them only when I needed them. I did for several years but after taking them for the past 9 months my tolerance went thru the roof and things got out of control. I guess that's the price you pay for not controlling yourself. I really wished I could control myself and only take them when I really needed them. I'm hoping that getting in shape along with stretching will help with my problems but it really does suck not to be able to get instant relief! Lol

[jlannspr]

31 days is awesome. I be your clean days will start flying by now, you'll be at 60 and 90 before you know it. Don't turn back, this is huge.