Opana & oxycodone addiction

[cbrenner]

I have made it to 5:30 am and the first thing I did upon rising is pray, then turn on the computer to look for something from any of you. I did it yesterday on 60 mg. I woke up with pain/withdrawals about an hour ago and I am just watching the clock and talking to God until 6 AM, I can do this. I can do this. I WILL do this. I do already have some potasssium tablets and someone told me to try to get valium from my doc. I can't do that but I have some old muscle relax tablets for my migraines. So, I started taking 2 a day of those. I cannot tell whether they help or not because the leg pain is so bad, but I am trusting that they are helping. I simply cannot tell my doctor. I have only seen him twice and he doesn't know me at all. When I moved to CA I got all new doctors and he barely looked at my old record, mostly asked me questions & examined me. My old doctors and Pain Mgment Clinic got me on all of this crap. I could barely walk and was racked with pain when I first got on this stuff. I had NO IDEA what they were giving me. All I knew was that I went from laying in a curled position almost all day, to running my household. It was like a miracle! Now, I'm back to being in bed almost all day and the arthritis is pretty bad again. I read about how eventually, the drugs don't work anymore. I think that is what is happening to me. I never took more than I should, ever. Nonetheless, I live in agony and watch the clock to see when I can take something. That is hell. Thank you for being there but I won't tell me doctor. I just can't.

[VICourageous]

Hi..Just hang on to that surf board and ride the wave..Time is the biggest Healer here..The Brain & Body needs time to adjust..It is so short lived to the Years we used..You also need to replenish the vit/min & electrolytes deficiencies ..Make sure you get some Protein powder and mix it with juice or fruit..Berrys are great they have good antitoxins in them..The emotions are all part of this Journey..This here will Pass..
Bless...

[cbrenner]

Took the suggested Alteril and it does help. Bought tonic watec and will get through this day whtehr I like it ot not! O mybody...you are not the  boss of me and I'ii yell at me, warning me that we ARE going to do this thing!
It is normal to be a tad but snappy and quick tempered with peope? My brain isn't wroking. I am also anger with people for no reason.How long does that last? And this bain business, when does this crazy part vanish?. Big, huge bear hug to eveyone who reaches out in that long dark tunnel of space to offer hope and send a lifejacket!

[cbrenner]

Sunday night I slept better than I have been. Only got up once.That isvery good for me, Took the suggested Alteril and I must say that $15 per bottle is a bit pricey but apparently, it does the trickl. ANd, here is my SURPRISE part, I didn't wake uyp in the night an take my 1 oxycodone tabet! It is still lsyiny thede> Yea! Could it be that I actually have ahappy dance moment in my life of pain? Oh yes, I bought some tonic water and plan to get it very cold in order to swallow it.Somone pls tell anout thses awful sweats. I awaken every morn with my pillow and the tops pf my shirts just plan wet I am eatching but hardly have an appetite.  I am trying to muster uy fake feelings for mt grandsons uocoming birday pary at Chuckie Cheese on Fraday.. I love the boy but ,muserting up joy, laughter and lot of smiles, as well as as great precent, would be fun. Lord, help me through party,

[cbrenner]

Thank you for your encouragement. I AM going to do this. I am! I do not know what suboxone is??? I am going to take the opana (20 mg, twice a day) and somehow stop. I was taking 30 mg, twice a day, plus 4 oxycodone. Now I am 20 mg, twice a day and one oxy. That is good, right? I am barely making it because my husband fell off the wagon and he is drunk and verbally abusive constantly. He just got fired this morning for being drunk on the job yesterday.  I have no where to go. Really, I don't. All I have is my social security and I am going to try to open a private account this week so that he can't get to it. He buys booze and cigarettes. That is my food money. Him and my daughter terminally ill and me trying to do this thing (make that DOING this thing) seems more than I can handle. If, just this once, he would sober up and support me and help me. But, I am alone. That is why your posts mean so very much to me. It is like a hand reaching across some long, dark waters and there is someone, somewhere that cares. I am going to walk to church. It is next door so I can do that! Thank you. Pls keep advising me.

[abritt121222]

Your doing good keep the positive mindset and that will help a lot also even tho u aren't gonna want to try and do some kind of excersises just a lil walk or something will help to. I posted on your other post and I feel your pain because like I said I was on the same meds at the end of my active addiction and not even suboxone would knock the edge off of withdrawal from opana and I didn't even know there was a drug strong enough that suboxone wouldn't help but I found out the hard way oxymorphone is nothing to play with and I was crushing 40mg extended release up and snorting 6-9 of them a day on top of the oxy I was also taking way to much of. I also had pain and have had two back surgeries and that's why I was put on it but after I got off I'm not by any means saying it was easy but after a lot of hard and painful physical therapy some cortisone and steroid shots and a few nerve burns and of course that was all after the two surgeries but I am now clean and my back feels way better than it ever did while on meds. Your body wants more and more of the narcotic so your mind will physically make you hurt worse to get you to take more u just have to be ready for a real fight even after the physical withdrawal is over find a counselor or something along those lines and try some n/a or aa meetings because talking to ppl that have actually been in your shoes helps alot more than u might think it will right now

[cbrenner]

Thank you for just answering. I don't feel so alone when I get something. I am so proud that I once again, made it on only  60 mg. It was so hard but I did it. This morning, shockingly to me, I have not yet had anything! Normally, I take a pill upon rising. But today, it is 9 am and I haven't taken anything. I am going back to bed and when I get up, I am going to try that epsom salt bath. Also, I didn't think of it until your email, but I took myself off the stuff I am supposed to take for fibromyalgia. It is callled gabapentin. So, last night, I started taking those again. Maybe that is why I am able to NOT take any narcotics yet. I am so glad you mentioned arms too. I thought I was going crazy but my legs AND ARMS just have hurt almost constantly. I don't know what is normal pain and what is withdrawal. The arthritis in my hands and joints is bad but I'm hoping that will get better. The pills helped for years, now, they don't anymore. Thanks you VERY much for your prayers. I really need the Lord!

[nbhope]

The restless leg were awful for me,I also had it in my arms. I have fibromylisiga and I was put on neurontin to help with that, but when I was going through the withdrawals that helped so much. With your chronic pain this our some of the other pain regulators may help you. Some are savella,cymbalta,lyrica amatripaline. Those helped my daughter too. I started taking L-tyrosene and been on it for 4 days now and I feel really good. I have energy and my pain is not as bad. Just some suggestions. The pain pills for me where making my fibro worse, I feel it's taking me a while to get where I am now. You will get through this, 3 days seems to be the magic # for a lot of people, for me it was a bit longer due to pain issues. After 3 days I started to move around and walk and take drives. Hot showers where a huge life saver. I couldn't function really with out one. I too prayed a lot :) I will keep you in my prayers.