Hope to get it right this time...

[emma891]

I was over 150 days clean of pain pills....
I called the doctor, made an appointment and within 2 hours I was picking up a RX for 90 Percocet.  That was August 23 by September 20 I got a refill.  I took the first 90 within 10 days and went through withdrawals and hated myself for doing that again.  I counted the minutes until that next appointment and needless to say that RX only lasted 10 days again.  For the past 5 months I have been seeing a therapist and I have not been honest with her about this relapse.  I was at work yesterday getting myself ready to take a day off so that I could get through the initial withdrawal.  I decided that I am tired of this cycle.  I don't have the will power to stay off of these.  I looked on line and found a suboxone doctor in my area.  I went to the initial evaluation today and felt really optimistic about it.  I am going to see the doctor tomorrow and will probably be starting suboxone treatment.
I am nervous and relieved all at the same time.  I will have therapy 2 times a week at the center.  
I would like to know if anyone has any advice about beginning suboxone treatment.  I am very apprehensive about starting something new that I will eventually have to withdrawal from....but I can't do this on my own anymore.  I have been getting clean and relapsing for a year now and it is very exhausting.  

[emma891]

I saw the suboxone doctor this morning and he gave me a prescription for 4mg 4 times a day.  I took the first dose and feel better already.  I have read a lot of information on line and the information that the doctor gave me to read.  I would still love to hear about anyone's experiences with this.  
For so long I tried to make myself believe that I could do it on my own.  I would get a prescription filled, take it way too fast, and then suffer withdrawals until the next refill date.  When I got clean for almost 5 months it was a daily struggle with cravings and the constant scheming to try and get it filled early.  This has been going on for over 4 years and I am just so tired of it all.  The last 2 prescriptions of percocet that I had made me so irritable and depressed.  I took too many during the day trying to get that feeling and it just made me feel horrible.  
I am hopeful that with suboxone and therapy 2 times a week that I will be able to get my life back and feel like I used to.  

[IBKleen]

Hi & Welcome,

I do not recommend going on a Suboxone program to come off of Percocet, but that is just my opinion. As you stated, you will suffer withdrawal from the Suboxone eventually and it is far worse than the opiate withdrawal you are suffering now.

If you are still going to go on the program, please do research about it, for one, and take that time to get your life together .. get therapy .. find a support group ... so when you decide to come off of the Suboxone at least you may be better prepared.

It is quiet this time of the day but stick around and listen to the members here. There are a lot of stories and great support!

I wish you well.