Withdrawal worse everytime

[dreamin]

I am wondering why physiologically withdrawal symptoms get worse everytime you go through them, I have severe cluster headaches and don't take norco all the time,  but when I need to take them when I am in a bad cycle, (a cycle can last anywhere from 3-5 days) I go through withdrawals, the bone pain, achiness, all of it.  I t didn't use to be this way, but now it happens everytime.  I would rather suffer the withdrawals then take them when I don't need to, but it is getting harder..can someone explain this to me?

[peaz]

I replied to your email but I think there was a routing error. Tell me if you got it or not.

[vicoaddict]

Oops I meant my last entry to be to Peaz not Gamez.

[peaz]

Well, let's hope your husband isn't intentionally being an insensitive jerk by telling you his new babe is just like YOU, except for the fact that she can have kids.....You seem to know a lot about her.  Did you ask, or is he just being "sweet" and "sharing" w/ you??  Spare me......like you want to know ANYTHING about this Beyatch.  But, like I said yesterday, he had a hand in this affair, too.  So often we wives hate the other woman and forget to be as pissed or even MORE pissed at our own husbands.  Go figure....
     I'm so sorry to hear how sad you are, and the hurt you're feeling right now.  If you're not on an anti-depressant, I strongly suggest it, because you need all the help you can get in keeping a healthy morale and outlook.  Do you have family or friends that you can go to for support?  And does anyone know about your addiction and W/D so they can help you get past this trying and tempting time?  You need all the shoulders you can find right now, sweets, and if you don't have any available,  you can email me at  ***@**** and we can talk more privately.  I think sundara has posted to you up top, too, so we can both be there if you need us.  Hang in there, and KEEP POSTING AND DON'T PICK UP!!!  You've come too far to trash it all now....  Love, Peazy

[vicoaddict]

I appreciate everything you just said to me.  I feel so alone right now and it feels good to know someone understands what I am going through.  So far I have stayed away from the vicodine, but it is so tempting.  I have cried so much that my eyes a practically swelled shut.  Its hard not thinking that I did something.  He even had the nerve to tell me she's alot like me. I can't have kids and she can and has a daughter so I keeping thinking maybe that's why.  I just need to remeber I am a good person and don't deserve this.  There is someone out there who will treat me better and I can have a fresh start on life.  Thank you for your advice and understanding.  It means alot.

[peaz]

Hey Woman!!! Hang in there!!!  Jesus Christ what a slap in the face but DON'T USE THAT AS AN EXCUSE TO RELAPSE! PLEASE>>>>>> You are doing so well and this is FOR YOU. There is NO way you can adequately cope w/ everything that's going on in your life if you're all ****** up and in a fog. You will still have all the problems when  it comes time for that next dose.......STAY SOBER.
     Well, guess what? Small world--the exact SAME thing happened to me (many years ago, now) and we had been together about the SAME amount of time, too.  We had a baby girl, 2 years old at the time, so I was left to be a single mom, was battling a bone tumor w/ 4-5 subsequent surgeries, and in  2  casts, so work was out of the question.  All that **** is really neither here nor there----what I want to tell you is, and this is CRUCIAL that you understand this: THERE IS NOTHING YOU DID TO "DRIVE" HIM AWAY.  Your marriage is a two-way street, darlin', and it is never one person's fault.  In fact, you should avoid the words"fault" and "blame", because they serve no purpose in the end, anyway.  Sometimes **** just happens (hey--that would make a catchy phrase, wouldn't it??LOL)and there is NO WAY that anything you, alone, DID to cause this.  One more thing:  You will get throught this and find happiness again.  Your life isn't over.  But if you fall back into your addiction, you don't stand a chance of reclaming anything worthwhile.  You nne to keep up the ggod fight and keep you nose to the grindstone.

PLEASE don't be angry at me for barging into your life: lecturing and telling you do this; don't do that......I've BEEN THERE and I'm only trying to give you hope.  I wish you the very best, and if I can help you out in any way, please let me know.  Love--Peazy

[vicoaddict]

Sorry I haven't been on er in a few days.  My sister is in town with her new baby boy.  He is only 6 months old.  I keep looking at him and thinking how nice it must be to just be starting out in this world and so happy and carefree.  I want to be like tat.  I am doing better.  I havent taken any vicodine in a week and have survived the withdrawals.  I feel so guilty and nervous about the things I have done lately.  but so far so good.  My husband told me yesterday thet he is leaving me at the end of the month for another woman and they are going to live together.  I am tryoing to stay away from the pills even though I am in so much emotional pain.  We have been together for 7 years and i don;t know how to be without him.  And I keep thinking what is wrong with me.  Obviosly I did something i he is turning to another woman.  I am scared of what the future holds and I am even more afraid that I am going to relapse because I don't want to feel the paain and heart break.  I am just going to take it minute by minute and do a lot of praying.  It alaways help to hear from everyone on here.  I really need the support.  thank you for listening.
Sincerely Vicoaddict