Wow

[bb454]

Im a little over a week clean from a 6 to 8 hydro a day habit for two years..detox was bad but not too too bad...today I am so depressed!! I have been on Prozac for a week or so. I realize it takes a while to get into your system. Im just so sad today...i have too many people depending on me to feel this bad..ugh lord help me!

[bb454]

My Dad was a recovered addict..he had 15 years clean. I have written about him numerous times on here so forgive me for repeating. He had cancer for many years..woukdnt even take pain medication for a tumor wrapped around his spine..he was afraid to wake the demon..so suffered. I just know he would be able to pull me through this if he were here..i know I can do it though. I have a family to care for. When Moms down this house falls apart..i origionally took the med for my back then it turned into for my back and energy to be supermom....ha! Yeah a real"super"mom...not so super right now but working on it...dix im glad you have your brother to hold ur hand through this!

[selfinduced]

Such is the circle of life.....karma comes full circle. So fortunate you are to have him and he to have you. He is now a mirror of what you will be when your thru this.....so nice.

[Dixiechick72]

Lol he is. He was a crazy drug addict. Did everything under the sun!!! It landed him in and out of jail. I saw his life fall apart. The funny thing was he moved in with me to get clean.   Now look at me!!! After his two years I started abusing pain pills slowly.  Anyways he's sober and is my Rock through  all this.   It helps so I share!!!

[selfinduced]

Your brother sounds like a wise, wise soul. He just inspired me. Thank You.

[minn66]

Hi bb, I understand the sadness. If you can, try to find something funny to watch. A show, movie, or comedian. Laughing really does help and it distracts you from thinking about what you're going through. Humor has gotten me through many a rough day. Keep on keeping on, it will get better, it just takes time. I know it seems easy for me to say but believe me, I've been there.

Hugs,
Minn

[Dixiechick72]

Don't be sorry. I've been in a funk all day!!! Mind over matter though. Trying to hold on to the positive. I didn't think I could do a damn thing today but I pushed myself to go to the gym. I came home and dropped for 30 min in bed. Our bodies are still adjusting as is urs. Maybe ask ur doctor about seeing a therapist. It doesn't hurt. The more support the better right??!! Hang in there and post as u need to