You sound like me , I was put on citalopram and at first it was fine then I had a mad few days and nearly took my life .. I don't no weather to tell my doc bec they get other people involved ' what is Vicodin ??
Weaver is correct in regards to mixing, as I dangerously did it for nearly 8 years straight. My tolerance level became so high mixing OxyContin, Oxycodone and Xanax (Alprazolam). DO NOT take the Vic's, as it will not alleviate the desire for the Xanax. As she said, taper. I was lucky I did not kill myself, as I went cold turkey 30 days ago from all 3 as described above. I was suicidal and have been an addict too too long. Had to hit the ER twice and now I am clean FINALLY, after all these years.
Again, TAPER and spread it out as much as you can. I have a history of depression, but I have come to realize it takes A LOT of work to get the craziness, in a sense Obsessive Compulsive thinking to be altered. I am early in the process, over 50 and basically, am relearning to live, for a better choice of words, "Normally" one day at a time. The Xanax gives you a false sense of security, then it plays on your mind. I am a physical mess and may have done permanent nerve damage, but better to try and live without, as it is pure hell being on them, including any opiates.
Reach out as Weaver said. A ton of help out there and empathetic and knowledgeable people who have been thru it and then some. I share because I am lucky to be writing this today. I should be dead given my usage and the longevity of it. Lastly, DO NOT do it like I did, going cold turkey. I was foolish and will be feeling the effects for awhile.
If I can do it, anyone can. Hang tough !!!!!
Mixing opiates(vicodine) and benzodiazepines(Xanax) is a very bad idea. I have seen many ER visits of "friends" from that combo. Seizures and death happen quit a bit as well. The last person I knew to die was on my one year clean week, about . He had too much morphine(opiate) and Klonopine(benzodiazepine) one night. He was cold next to his wife in bed by morning. If you are not addicted or dependent on vicodine and are not in severe pain, please just forget about that option of opiates.
Protocol is slow taper with the Xanax. You can buy the amino acid, GABA, as a supplement in a health food store. Use nutrition and healthy living to replace the desire for drugs to calm you down. Exercise and good food work to balance true moods. Fake moods, like the anxiety created by Xanax withdrawal, it suppresses anxiety, so withdrawal creates anxiety. Painkillers kill pain, a major symptom of withdrawal is pain. "Opiate Induced Hyperalgesia," they even have a word for it. Whatever a drug "helps" you with, it intensifies the original symptoms we took it for, if the cause of symptoms(anxiety), has not been corrected. So try to remember it's the detox causing it. What is the cause of your anxiety, if you don't mind my asking?
How fast have you dropped the Xanax dose? Have your replaced your old allegedly prescribing doctor? How's your over-all health, diet, life aside from the Xanax? Tell us more about yourself and hang around, it's easy to make friends in this place. Folks with more personal Xanax experience will be along before too long, but wanted you to know you are being heard. Welcome to the medhelp community. I couldn't will myself to overcome drugs, I don't know if I would have made it without my friends here, a lot of knowledge and support here. Hang in there, we'll help you work it out as best we can.