day 20 off everything

[ricart70]

Hi,just letting everyone and myself know that this is day 20 for me.I have alot more stamina but still not sleeping like I would like.I am going back to work tomorrow and that is kinda scary.I also work from home and have been keeping that going in a skeleton sort of way for the last few weeks.I am not as proud as I probably should be having kicked the 150+ per day ox monster cold turkey,but I know from before that this is a slow process but I wake up in the morning obsessing on all the things I have thrown away since this started.i don't feel that writing helps much but everyone says that it does and I try to help others on here as my experience permits.Thank you all for trying to help.I don't have cravings but have a constant need to feel better and a constant recalibration of what better actually is.

[ricart70]

The good side is today I was able to run 3.5 miles without stopping and could have gone more.Probably should have.I have been running every day since day 3.This is the first day that my legs didn't feel like they weighed 300 lbs..

[ricart70]

Thank you and I know what you mean,before this I was off for 2 1/2 years and my life improved immeasurably.

[Innerstrength67]

Hi ricart, I can totally relate! I think most of us here and thrown a lot away for our drugs and we must learn how to forgive ourselves.
Congrats on day 20 my friend. That is awesome.
I'm day 18 and wake up just like you do in the morning obsessing. But what's done is done right. If we could go back and change it, we would. I know how you feel and reaching out to other addicts is critical in our recovery process.
Thanks for sharing.

[justsaynotodrugs]

     Keep up the good work you will have these feelings thats one sign of a addict.  But it does get better.    Stay focused on recovery.