Hello, 25 years ago i was in a no-fault auto accident at around 25/26 years old that resulted in lower back surgery. then another no fault at around 32 years old that caused bulges, disc deterioration, herniation & bone spurs over the years, along with neck bulges that was never diagnosed for lumbar & thoracic MRI's.
basically all that they can do is give me pain medications. from the start i hated opiates. i still really hated taking them unless i am really in severe pain. i hated that feeling of stupor. but some things have changed as i will explain later.
i have been on many types of pks over the years. but i never took them unless my pain level climbed above a 6/7. i've never taken my pks as prescribed. i couldn't cope with the nausea and vomiting for over 20 years even with phenergan.
i am told by ppl who take painkillers for a buzz, that is the best part, once you vomit you began "rolling". i am sorry it was a battle for me to even take my prescriptions and deal with the nausea or just deal with the pain. i want it noted that they attempted many non-narcotic meds but none touched my pain.
my pain required 4- 7.5 at once. so i would eat at least 4 @ 30mgs, than about 4-6 hours later another 30mgs. in a 24 hr day. i only had level 10+ about 2-3 x a month. so i never took them longer than 2 days in a row and no more than 4-5 times a month. i have gone weeks and even months w/o taking them in my recent past.
now about a year ago i was side swiped again again, this inflamed my entire neck and back. so for 14 months ive had to take 60mgs for up to 3-4 days in a row, i have still never taken all my script in a month.
i have to take random urine samples. anyway he hit me in the times i was "fasting" so it had been over 4-5 days i hadn't taken my meds. i was scolded so now i take them as i always have. but now i am taking them 3-4 days whether i need them or not before each dr visit for the FBI. so i've been noticing that i have been having the runs for the day's after i don't take my meds. but i do make sure that i am good and dirty for the FBI. i wonder if my now tolerance level w/o vomiting and i get a really positive attitude under pks influence then sometimes depressed days afterwards. am i addicted? i have zero other side effects from NOT taking them for over 25 years now. thanks for any replys.
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