are the pills making me insane or is it just me?

[chubbers]

ok i have been taking  100-120 mg of oxys for the last year now and i have been trying to figure out how to get off for the last couple of months. i feel so anxious whenever i think about it but it hink i have finally come to terms with it. i now know that the mind ios very powerful and if i have apositive attitude it wont be as bad. but tis weekend i completely went of f the deep end. fri nite i just got really depresse out of no where and started crying uncontroably and couldnt stop for no reason/ then last nite i got into a argument with my husband over something stupid and then completly lost it on him threatening to leave him and strated screaming on top of my lungs at him and throwing stuff. i have no idea why i got like this but it scared me. after my tantrum i could barely catch my breathe. is this the pills or anxiety or what?

[Clamity2]

YES they do mess up your mind. I was blowing up often. I couldnt figure out if it was when I was on my way up or on my way down the buzz , but I was always bitchy beyond my comfort level. I became rude to people that love me or indifferent to them. I could turn off pretty easily too.  I'm not a angel now but I am in control of my emotions. Well not the crying ones. I still will cry sometimes for no apparent reason but..... I'm not yelling at my precious family ,uncontrolably.   So grateful.   You will be so happy when you get past the first few weeks and experience life again.

[Chi708]

The same thing was happening to me in late October I was freaking out and crying all the time yelling at my boyfriend too. It has to be the pills or your inner soul crying out for help.

For me i think it was the everyday hustle and bustle added on with my down/pill time. The two lives dont mix together and eventually even the stongest of us are going to break.

Do you work a job in the mix of your habit?

[guyinlosangeles]

Yes-it does mess with your head.  It brings you up and down and just as it can make you feel really good it can mess with your brain and make your mind a little kooky.  Just realize the drug is effecting your brain in all ways

[avisg]

hummm i used to get that when I was about 5 days from running out of pills , just the fear of running out was overwhelming ,perhaps the fear of quiting is getting to you .
avis

[marcatj]

what were you like before the pills?

[chubbers]

i havent even quit yet i was still taking the pills at that point

[GoingToMakeIt]

Are you quitting or cutting back? I ask because this sounds like withdrawal symptoms.