cant stop smokin

[BeyondScrewed]

I have a MAJOR narcotics addiction for 7 years now. When i have my fent patches i almost allways use them correctltly. When i get my hands on 10/325's, i too take them correctly. But my scripts are for, among other things, the fent patches and 30mg roxi's. As soon as i get my hands on them i smoke myself into a noddin oblivion. I cant stop. I have noone to talk to. I hate my marriage and i hate that im an addict like this. Paying for it now cause im in major w/d and have 12 days left till script. If it wasnt for my son, i would want ro die!!!!!!
I see no hope
I used to be such a great father/person. Now im a giant loser

[lulu747]

Beyond-
Hi and Welcome.  You may feel that you are beyond screwed, but believe me you are not.  You are alive, you are here, and you are asking for help.  That is a big step.  You can have a life, a REAL life, instead of this constant merry-go-round of chasing scripts, getting high, and loathing yourself.  You can stop.  You can get off the ride.  It is your choice.  
You are NOT a loser, you are an addict.  It's a human condition.  You don't have to live like this anymore, but you need to believe you can do it.  Your life is worth it.
Sending support,
Lu

[kyle505]

You are an addict, but that doesn't necessarily make you a loser.
Whether or not you become a great father once again is totally up to you, but it is possible. You wrote that in 12 days you will get more meds. So what then? Back to the same BS?  Are you on this forum to get help, or just for something to do for the next 12 days.  We can offer support - you have to decide if you really want it. And if you really want the truth about what you're doing.