I am starting to want some Lortab

[HelpinUtah]

I'm almost a full month out from taking Lortab, but that's all I can think about today.  I have a lot of stress going on today and this past week my health has been bad.  I have pancreatitis and the pain was getting to me.  Now, I'm simply drinking water and broth for food since I'm not allowed to eat anything else.  Anyway, the stress from others in my life, my job and now this are making me feel an urge to take the Lortab.  I'm starting to see that Lortab was also a way to avoid life!  My doctor asked me what I wanted for pain and I said NOT LORTAB.  So, she gave me darvocet.  I was worried I wouldn't be considered clean, but she assured me I'm fine.  So, I'm being careful and in fact have only taken 2 this morning around 9:00 a.m.  BUT, I keep contemplating calling her and saying I want the Lortab, but not for pain control!!!!  UGH!!! Please knock some sense into me.  

[HelpinUtah]

STFU!!!!  That's GREAT!!

[Mandapanda17]

I like that STFU.... I need to tell my neighbor to STFU.. she makes me panic everytime she comes around because I know shes on/ and has the evil pills at her house. Theres gotta be a way I can disassociate this from her.. We all need to stay strong today! congrats to you both! and really tell the voice to STFU!

[VicoMom]

I firmly believe I have never met a Normal Person I like... Come to think of it, I don't know that I have ever met one at all...

You hang in there... Tell that conspiratorial inner voice to STFU!!!

[HelpinUtah]

Thanks!!!!  You're right!  I don't want to go back there and start all over again!  THANK YOU !!!  I know this in my head.  This is the first time in this whole process that I have actually considered getting Lortab.  When I was on Day 5, my Father-in-Law was so distressed with what I was going through that he offered to give me Lortab.  At the time, I was so STRONG and said NO!!!  

That's okay, I'm mostly insane myself, especially today!!!

By the way, Congrats on being on Day 7!!!  STAY STRONG YOURSELF!!!  

[VicoMom]

And also, just remember how deceptive that voice that wants those Lortabs is... It is full of nothing but BULLS*** and will LIE to you.

Sorry if I sound totally insane... I am, mostly.

[VicoMom]

If you are doing okay, pain wise, with the Darvocet then DO NOT make that call. In fact, just don't make it either way. One month is great!

I am on Day 7 right now... Do you remember Day 1 - 7? Do you really want to possibly go back there and do it all over again? The aching, sweating, cramping, intestinal distress, lethargy, depression, misery... You are definitely having some terrible stress... And physical pain on top of it! My heart goes out to you. What a bunch o BS for you to have to go through!

You don't want to go back to Day 1... If she called it in... Who knows how long it might be until you even consider making the step to Day 1? It might be 6 months from now or even next year... I know I am prone to just let months and months pass on those things without even seriously thinking about quitting.

BE STRONG. You can do this... You have already proven that.