on December 28th (gods willing) I will have 10 years free from crack cocaine...
every year around this time of year, all the memories come flooding back...not in a pile or overwhelming...but glimpses of memories of using...of making connections, picking up, waiting outside, etc.
I'll be driving down the same road I've drived down all year and suddenly BAM...i'll have a 'flashback' of a time where I hooked up on this or that corner...the whole 'video tape' gets played...until i pull myself back from it. It doesn't make me crave for crack or anything like that...in fact it kind of turns my stomach...but its just something I've noticed over the past decade that every year around the holidays i get 'crack flashbacks'...
I wonder if in the future I will get vicodin/oxycontin flashbacks too....
~Amber