I go to alot of AA meetings and have done so for the last 20 years and it wasnt till 61 days ago that i finally came to an understanding. I absolutely could not stay clean and sober by continuing to be the selfish, self centered person i have always been. It is true that we can only get clean because we want to, but a good portion od staying that way is to be of service to those about us. Like i said I go to alot of AA meetings and i have learned that i need to be humble and be of service to the best of my ability. Now, at 61 days i cant do too much, but i am a secretary of two meetings, i keep supplies for the meetings at my home and restock them as needed, i make coffee at meetings as needed and shake the hands of the newcomers or people ive never seen before. Only by getting out of self can i find some peace. My sponsor told me this, that this is not a program for people who need it, it is a program for people who want it, the cemetaries are full of people who needed it.
God Bless
Deb