day 5 nervous for the future

[kme17]

I am feeling pretty good today. I didnt think i would feel this optimistic.. i actually feel like i can head to work tomorrow and just do it. I sure know the cravings will set in soon. I worry i wont handle it very well. But i will be here and hope you can all talk me out of it like you did yesterday. And if i dont post. I have turn to the other side and maybe i will shamfully crawl back for round 500.  Need toms of prayers for this week ahead! Thanks again everyone!

[fent_ct_or_die]

Thank you!!!! YES my retarded *** did it!!! day 11 i got some sleep last might for the FIRST time!!!!!! i woke up and felt SOOOO much better. less anxiety, RLS and shaking. heart rate is still over 100 but hell im getting all that cardio i missed out on since by back went out. lol.  i hear that you get small amounts of relief from fent withdrawal then BAM it somes back to knock you right back down again. but while im here feeling ok im going to enjoy it!!! its a LONG road for me, fent takes forEVER to kick so.... im sadled up for the ride. i was afraid if i did try to taper i would fail cause if i do have pain medicine i take it all right away... so i wanted to feel the worst withdrawal the first time so i learn my lesson!!! o boy i regreated that almost 2 hours after that patch came off... cause it was like a light flipped on and i was dying!!! good luck. message me if you need ANYTHING, you got this s***t. opiate withdrawal can be a MOTHER but a human body is even more impressive that it can live to tell about it. its as close to god i have ever been. i PRAYED for death!!! my heart to explode.. SOMETHING!!!  but it didnt... i had to feel every min :( my poor wife... if she takes a half a norco shes puking in the bathroom. she couldnt do anything... i could only imagine how awful that was... whew. i dont know what you were taking but it couldnt be worse than fent.. you'll be fine! :) enjoy life! god speed!

[kme17]

@ fent.. you really went thru it. I am shocked u made it! Congrats! You are my hero! Fent patches are nasty to get off of. How are you feeling on day 11? I am so nervous for my future. I finally came to my realization i connot keep them under control. Its either all, all the time or nothing at all

[kme17]

Sonrissa yep we got thru day 4 together chickie. I hope your doing alot better today!

[fent_ct_or_die]

nice!! i am on day 11 of cold turkey 75mcg fentanyl patch, oxy, hydro, methadone (when my friend had a sip to spare) and the combo was OMG horrible. last night was the first night i slept since taking that last EVIL patch off... my wife and 2 year old little girl watched me on the couch powerless to help me. i so understand!!! taper wouldt have worked unless i went to the methadone clinic that is 50 miles away and we cant afford it, cause if i got opiates i DO them... my story is day 1 2 and 3 where horrific convulsing and constant shaking, vomiting, severe anxiety that every second i thought was going to kill me. it didnt but my heart rate was always SO high i was scared for my life. ranged allways over 100 up to 160 and i didnt leave the couch!! whew it can be so so hard. stay strong sweety!!!! message me... ive been through living HELL of this for what seemed like forever and i stayed strong!! you can DO THIS!!

[Sonrissa]

Well, you made it through the heck of yesterday! We. both did! Glad you are better! Fight hard! I am with you every step! We are together and together we can do this, Right?

[hampstead]

I am on day 2 tapering off we are very lucky to have this site for help to understand withdralls