day ten

[mercedeze]

Its day ten opiate free physically feeling fine. Bt I just feel really sad today like nothing matters. Why did I feel so much happier on the pills. Why do I kp thinkn abt them. And why do I just want to cry this is so hard I am happy I am clean bt I do miss that buzz that hypd me up. I just pray to god I cn b happy again

[formerjerseygirl]

Merecerz you must be on day 11 now and I am on day 7.  I have detoxed myself before and tried to do this process before but realized the hardeset part would be stayinf off for good.  I got a drug counelor and I am joining a program...it is like NA but the through my medical plan.  So far I have onely had one meeting with my counselor but it felt so good to open up and talk about all the postive reasons to stay clean.  Yesterday I was having a good day and then around 5pm thought I was going to lose it.  Oddly enough I decieded to do laundry, help my kids clean their rooms and switch my son from his crib to his toddler bed.  While I was doing it  I was fighting tears, I was sweaty and I wanted to lay down.  But then we finished and it made me really happy to have accompihised something and I felt more in control.  I don't know if this will ever get easy (I hope so) but I know that it is worth it and we feel true self worth again.  Hang in there.  Of course I am sill having  take either a valium or ambien to get any sleep ay night.  I am little worried about this but see my drug dr on monday so hopefully will find what to for some precious sleep.

[fuzzypeach27]

Hi hun

As well as the physical withdrawals you will experience mental, basically a stoned mind making the transition to a sober mind. Opiates play tricks on you and your addiction once its finished knocking your body about will play mind benders on you so that you will give in. Long term opiates abuse changes the chemicals in your brain, it takes a while to reset. If you feel like you cant cope, go on some non addictive antidepressants but the will take up to 6 weeks to work. Its all part of the fun and games of recovery. I found this part the worst but it doesn't last long.

[dominosarah]

I think you would really do yourself a favor if you checked into NA or some type of support group.  We cant stress enough all the good things that come from it.  Put a smile on that face girl...Your 10 days clean!!!!         sara

[freedom007]

Hey...just wanted to chime in....days 7-13 were very tough for me.  Because physically I felt fine...but mentally I felt like I did not have a soul...like my personality was just a blank slate.  Trust me...when you pass the second week...and going into your third, things will get MUCH better.

I agree with everyone here though...you have to challenge yourself and your brain.  Like getting into shape...do things that will give you a sense of accomplishment.  It ***** and it feels like it won't work...but it does.  I looked into refinancing my mortgage...only sent two emails..it took 20 minutes...but it made me feel alive again...like I was taking control of my life again.

Push...the light is there...trust everyone here...

[pharma9]

You are doing a great job to get to 10 days...double digits.Perhaps you could take up a hobby to distract you from the urges.The longer you fight them off,the easier it gets.When i quit smoking I took up crocheting...or knitting...or sewing..useful hobbies that kept me busy and kept my mind off the cigarettes.I also had a full time jobExercise or volunteering is also very good.Even posting and talking to use keeps you occupied and busy.Just keep up the good work and you will find it easier each day.

[mercedeze]

I havent got any plans for aftercare bt I do think I should look into na meetings. And I really am going to try and focus on other thngs. I really love thz site bcuz nt 1 person in my fam except for my dad has ever had a addictin. And he calls me alot to c hw I am doing bt is always drunk or high bt he doesnt want help. So its hard to take advice frm hm. Thank u all for the words of wisdom

[gnarly_1]

hey girlee.....your going thew the emotional stuff right now  my consolor calls it
"rebound emotions" your up then down they cycle...it is a normal part of coming
off narcotics...as for craving the buzz...cravings come and go..its what you do with them that makes or breaks ya...you need to take all your thoughts captive and then analyze
them...is this logical?? or is it the addict in me thinking...you can always replace the thoughts with something else...music works good...crank it up and dance..it will make you feel better if you believe in God prayer helps alot  I turn to God every time im at my weakest ...yuo will find strength in him...just get bizzy doing something other then dwelling on the cravings for the pills or buzz it will pass with time and it usually dont last to long once you occupy your time with something else...are you involved in aftercare of any kind??? if not google N/A meetings in your area and get to one...aftercare is critical to staying clean and it will give you some new non/using friends to hang with that understand what your going threw....just dont give up
temptations come and go but you have made it this far keep on pushing forward
YOU CAN DO THIS....message me if I can be of any help ...good luck and god bless....Gnarly        

[Danny111]

Great job making it to day ten mercedeze.  You've gotten yourself through most of the physical parts of the wd's.  The mental parts take longer and are much more seductive I think.  They key seems to be to just move your mind away from the thoughts about pills and on to other happier things.

Have you thought about aftercare?  NA meetings or anything like that?

[mercedeze]

Thank you all 4 ur responses and I will take ur advice. I never knew anythng like this could be so hard. But I f3el like I have cme along way and am nt going to go bkwards

[formerjerseygirl]

I am only day 6 myself but exercise has been the only thing that has really helped with the depression.  I went off once before and stayed off for 6 months.  This was during election season and I got really involved in the Obama campaign.  That was when I got back to a feeling of true happiness with no pills.  I think trying to connect something greater than yourself...however that might be for you will help...volunteer work, donate to Hatiti, environmental issues...whatever might be important to you.  As soon as I get a little past day 6 I am going to try to get involved in something that is larger than myself to see if it works again.  Until then exercise and vitamins have been my best allies

[Calamity2]

Mercedeze!!!  Mercedeze!!!   Stop that stinking right now!!  Did you read any posts about how our feelings take time to adjust themselves naturally.  
Darn I have 3 people talking to me right now at the same time.  Sorry.  I did want to say you need to fight the temptation to get sucked into negative thinking. This will pass. If you have to do a simple exercise and just look around where you are and say nice picture nice woodwork pretty hair whatever it takes to REPLACE the thoughts you are haveing now. the short buzz you felt on opiates is NOTHING compared to how thankful you will be to stop serving opiates.  I used again on day 14 to have the buzz so the kids could have fun on our weekend away. I would be nicer on opiates, just a few pills. Well 2 days later I was in full wds again and didnt want to continue using so went ct. So cold again.