hydrocodone help

[caseysmom4]

Hi, I am new to posting, been lurking here for awhile, but am finally ready to admit I need help. I have been using hydro's 7.5/500 on & off for about 3.5 yrs and almost every day for the past 2 with a few breaks here and there, never more than a week off. I don't take that many compared to alot of you only about 4-7 per day with the most being on the weekend. Normal work week i have 1.5-2 in the morning and a half late afternoon and 2 when I get home about 6-7pm. I am at the point that if I don't take them or miss my "dose" than I feel extremely crappy and can't concentrate, chills, runny nose, etc. The problem is my husband doesn't believe me that I have a problem, if I don't have any pills and am not feeling well, he tells me its in my head, that I'm not taking enough to be addicted. He says I'm being a b i t c h and to take my medicine so he can deal with me. I have a 2 yr old and can't do this by myself, I only had 2 halfs today and am feeling bad. Thank god his my mom just called & asked if the baby can come over so he just took her. Sorry for being so long winded but when you finally admit to having a problem it just all comes out & I have know one else to talk to. I only have 1.5 pills left and don't want to have to take these anymore. I don't know what to do. I know he's just going to come home with more sometime this week (he had back surgery and can just go to the dr and get more) and I can't keep this up,
it's not fair to my daughter to have a mom that can't function right for her.

[dng]

good luck to you sweetie...we are ALL here for you....dee

[caseysmom4]

My husband gets them from the dr for his back and I also went to a nurologist and saig I was getting migraines so he wrote me a script for 60 a month, my hubby gets 120 from 1 dr and 90 from anohter

[caseysmom4]

Thank you everyone for your help and just for listening, my husband  & daughter just got home, I am going to do this for myself and for my daughter. I will check back in tomorrow from work, i am going to call and make an appt with my dr tomorrow, he is very good and hopefully can help me with this. thank you!

[TayKad]

I am in the same boat as you, but I am the man of the house.   I have a 4 and a 2 yr old and have feared cold turkey from Hydrocodone 10/325 4-7 per day.  It rules my life and I quit once after 2 years because I ran out of pills.  I started back up after 2 wks of being clean and now I am stopping again due to no more pills.  It has been 30 hours and I am feeling crapy.  You need to stop, it is enevitable that you will take higher doses as your body builds a tolerance.  The main problem with me is the mental pain; the thought of life without the euphoric feel with the pills.  Just know that you can't keep getting pills forever.  How do you get them, by the way?

[SeekingHeavenlyHelp]

casey.....if he doesnt understand.....put him aside and concentrate on you!!!! If he is taking them he will eventually feel exactly what you feel.....I know EXACTLY how you feel....I went cold turkey and I am only on day 6 or 7 of no use....the difference is...my husband is what pulled me thru on those nights i just didnt want to fight anymore...its a war...not just a battle...remember that....it will test you in ways you never knew possible but you can do it...i believe in you....prepare yourself....get a good reliable caretaker for your babies and get your self in some where.....forget your husband or bf hes not the one hurting you are! i dont know where you are from but there is a place in Manhattan NY called Parallax.

They helped me....they use the clonidine/lorazepam protocol they have a website too....goodluck sweetie

[caseysmom4]

At this level that i am at if i stop cold turkey will it be very bad? Am i going to be able to work/take care of my child and how long will it last? Or should I try to taper or is that just prolonging the inevitable since I am only at 4-7 a day (usually 4.5), so would it be best to just tough it out and not touch them ever again.

[caseysmom4]

I started out just for fun and stopped when I got pregnant, it was only once in awhile before that so I had no problem stopping and then I had a C-section and they gave me 120, after that it was pretty much everyday because I liked the feeling, and you know how tired you are with a newborn, so I felt I had so much energy and could do anything on them. Then I went back to work and my husband got hurt so he was getting a ton of pills whenever he wanted them, mainly hydros but sometimes Opana (oxymorphone).

[caseysmom4]

Thank you, its so good to be able to talk to someone about this. Yes I do want to stop, I guess my question is, how do I handle my husband. He is going to get 90 pills at the end of the week.  they are always here and he doesn't think that either one of us has a problem. I know that it's alot of willpower to quit and I do want to but it is so hard with them always here and him not willing to help in anyway. He has friends that are in NA who went from 20 a day so he feels that I should just stop and I shouldn't have any withdrawls or anything. How do I make him understand?





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[cleanagin]

Don't be ashamed about that, it's very common.. Did you start b/c of pain or just the feeling?
I'll go ahead and tell you this.. DON'T be ashamed. Go see a doctor ASAP and explain him the situation. My fault it that I didn't and waited it out with my pain and got addicted.. Even if you didn't start with pain go to an addiction specialist not just a regular doctor unless you know a good PCP that is knowledgeable about these types of things. I gotta say though your boyfriend i sVERY wrong. You are a casual addict. A casual addict will usually turn full blown. Good luck and get help.

[dng]

welcome to the forum...i'm not sure what you are saying..what to do is to stop....if you really want to stop taking them..stop.....hey listen i was clean for 5 weeks pulled my back out again was on for 9 days....but never took more then 2 a day...but what's the difference..still went through w/d...but if you really want to do it you can..wer'e all here for each other....good luck to you sweetie.....dee

[IBKleen]

Hello and Welcome!

It was good to see your post. Now that you are out of pills (for now), what is it that you want to do? I didn't really see a question. Are you asking what will happen if you go cold turkey?

Please give some more information. I am sure someone here can help you with whatever it is you decide that you want to do.

Hope to see you post.