has anyone had any "false hope days"

[Matt1b3]

Hey my name is matt and im 32 yrs old and i am trying at home cold turkey oxycodone detox and day four is tomorrow but day three was an easier day than one and two were. I had gone 4 1/2 days when i was 28 and each day was worse than the last so i thought i had an idea of what was to come. Yet this time day 3 was easier than the first two days not many shakes or ant bites i call them i had the runs but didnt seem like the typical runs from w/d. At night the jerky legs started to come back i hope i didnt over do it. Is it possible that the worst is over or was this a false hope kinda thing? Please if anyone can tell me anything about this it would help me greatly.

[Matt1b3]

Hey all thanks for your words. I feel fine during the days but my energy plummets with the sun. Sleep isnt easy but never has been for me so its not a weight i carry. Im slowly beginning to exercise. I have no cravings not even when im around oxycodone which makes me feel like my reasons for quitting and goal I've set for myself are the right ones.

[Pat1956100]

Congrats Matt
Keep fighting on and racking up that clean time.
There is nothing like a clean life.
Keep posting for support.  You may have trouble with sleep for awhile and if you do let us know.

[Pits253]

How u feeling

[Matt1b3]

I have past the point of my previous record of 4 1/2 days at 4:30 am it will be 5 days down and starting day 6

[Matt1b3]

Thank you all so much. This does help. Day 5 of sobriety starts at 4:30 am tomorrow. I haven't been sober more than 4 1/2 days since i was 18. Big day tomorrow i think ill talk a walk if the weathers okay.

[Real180]

Hey Matt - congratulations on your decision to get your life back and rid yourself of the burden of being an active pill addict... as you know these things grab you quick and bring you down hard -- I know it sounds crazy but as Rosy eluded the WDs are the easy part -- the true fight are the weeks and months after we feel "normal" again... I've been the merry go round a few times and I'm currently 21 days clean and HAPPIER than I've been in a very long time... I can tell you all about my failures and what I did wrong that resulted in relapsing but I keep it short -- AFTERCARE of some sort.. I suggest meeting (AA,NA, etc..) I never thought -- even at the height of my addiction that I would ever be attending meetings -- now I cannot imagine fighting this fight with out that type of support... For now get through the physical but start thinking of what your plan will look like after the physical is done (which it sounds like it will be very soon for you)... Have you cut your sources? Told people close to you about your problem? If your motivated and focused to,stay clean these things must be done, I know they are hard but they are so important -- if they are not done then you WILL quickly find yourself right back on the merry - go - round -- this will be a long tough fight, but you have resolve -- I can see it in your words, so please continue posting and there are some very, very, wise people on this thread that will give you all sorts of advise but I can promise you that the common thread in all their messages will be -- cuts sources, tell your secret, and aftercare... Anyway, I wish you all the best on this journey to reclaiming LIFE back!

[selfinduced]

Hi Matt, So glad your finally at a place in your life where your wanting to take it back. Like you, I too wasn't afraid of dying so to speak, but the thought of LIVING in a body I so badly abused and feeling like crap in my older years scared the sh** out of me. I know your strong in your conviction about staying drug free and that you may, but for me I kept switching addictions till I dug in with everything I had to stay on top of it. That doesn't have to be meetings, church or other conventional things, but it has to be (in my opinion) something. Keep posting, I'll be looking for all your milestones and rooting you on with each one.

[ROSYouralright]

Eyes on the prize :)

[Matt1b3]

Thank you all so much

[Matt1b3]

I will do this

[msdelight]

One day one battle at a time! You will get through all of it! Yes!

[ROSYouralright]

The physical stuff is the easy part!! The mental shikaka is tough!

[Matt1b3]

I feel like if i can get through the physical symptoms ill make it. Im sure everyone thinks that and says that but ive been picking up on all the little tricks the mind plays on you im sure it will get harder but i do think that as long as i can get past the physical part ill be okay

[msdelight]

Very true Matt and your new fate is to be clean.  I was drinking quite a bit before I found percocet so I know what you mean. It is an evil and sneaky drug. But I am proof that you can live without it. And when I say live I mean LIVE.  The fact that you have a good attitude and are "in it to win it" will help you a great deal. Hot baths with Epsom salt will help the shakey legs and a normal dose of motrin will help too. Check out the link below for the Thomas recipe for additional help with symptoms. Attitude is everything and I predict you will get through this just fine! Start researching your options for aftercare. When you feel better it will be time to fight the mental battle! Plan now to win! The more support you have the easier it will be.

[Matt1b3]

Thats what i was thinking too rosy maybe who knows fingers crossed

[Matt1b3]

Thanks i was taking 60 mg vicodin with ibuprofen and 45 mg of oxycodone and some days 60 mg 8hr time release morphine ive been doing that for about 5 yrs and before then it was just oxy maybe 3 times a day 15 mg each started that at 25 yrs old and before then i was trying to drink myself to death from18-25 till i found pills and it was easier to hide that and draw out my sought after suicide as long as it was long and drawn out with as much punishment and damage as possible thats where i was at before i decided to get clean

[ROSYouralright]

Maybe it's going so much better because it's your CHOICE!!! Before , when you were forced  things were probably magnified ...

[Matt1b3]

My arms and legs are jerking but i dont feel as bad as i did when i was younger but i wasnt planning on stopping the meds then and its my plan now. I was an alcoholic from say 18-25 and then i found oxycodone it was a seamless transition so easy. WOW the damage it did to me personally i never thought i would get addicted to it i was not prepared for how quickly it got me. If i were a lucky man i wouldnt have ever found pharmaceuticals. Nice thought though but who knows maybe. Thanks again. " There is no fate but what we make for ourselves".

[msdelight]

I agree! Don't over think it. Go with how you feel and treat the symptoms as they come. It really depends on how much you were taking.  Hopefully the worst is over! Keep going and stay positive! Congratulations!

[ROSYouralright]

Maybe you got lucky?!! Take each symptom as it comes and don't borrow trouble! Congrats on taking your life back!