Hard Day

[denise3606]

I am on day 6 and for some reason I am having a really hard day, so I decided to come here..I am not thinking of the pills much, I have worked really hard on my part time job the last two days and my back is almost out today, I have been taking it easy with ice...I am kind of anxious and depressed, but still grateful for all I have...I think it is because my old body is trying to heal...It will help when I get some sleep..I took melatonin last night, It did not help much,,,I will take it again tomorrow ...I have to leave my house at 5:15 in the  morning to do service until noon...Excited about that...I wish I could be more active right now...Not possible...Trying to heal the back naturally...I am just babbling, I am sorry I am trying to keep my spirits up...Hugs

[dominosarah]

How are you feeling today Denise?

[denise3606]

Thank you ..Actually I just took a hot shower..I have to get up at 4 am..probably not get up but stay awake..Hee Hee If you are worried about someone, especially one of your children...I do have some advice...The Lord tells us that the problems of our children are for them to take, not for us, It is for their growth like ourselves...I will talk to you tomorrow,as I have to get some or try to get some sleep...We are almost the same age...It is harder for us older folks and this helps me to relate...Hugs

[OpenMind24hours]

HOT BATH!! When you feel like you describe in your post - hit the tub! Can't say enough about the power of a hot bath. It's life changing, right on the spot. I couldn't sleep last night, bundle of nerves about a family thing, mind was working overtime. I hit the tub a 2AM. Went back to bed, next thing I knew it was morning! It's amazing. Try it Denise.

Great you're working on your back naturally!! My back has taken quite a bit of abuse over the years. i surfed over coral for 3 years and got beat up daily, did lots of running in bad shoes, and then hauling around heavy photo gear for 45 years. My back is what got me on Vicodin, and then Vicodin is what got me here. All's well that ends well. Sometimes it takes a bad to lead us to a good. My back is compressed and full of bulges and hernias. But  In my case I can walk to keep my back loose. So I walk and walk, every day. I also do the PT stretches I was taught during my 3 PT sessions over 3 years. All the walking (with 2 dogs) seems to make my overall health much better I guess. It helps me to find some good out of what I'm going through. What's going on with your back? When it goes out does a disc slip?

Your heading for your big blessings quickly Denise! You're free! You're life is returning. Congratulations on day 6! Keep on keeping on!

[denise3606]

Just so you know Rick, I am still laughing and I have to go to the mall to walk...We have great winters though...They don't last long enough...Hugs

[quitinoxys]

Sorry I just looked at you profile and saw you live in Chandler AZ and I'm sure the last thing you want is MORE sun LOL. I glad I could make you laugh though hang in there---Rick

[denise3606]

You totally made me laugh just now...When you said sun...I am so flipping tired of the hot hot sun here...AND we have another three months to go...Thanks for the laugh, it really made me feel better...I am back to being very grateful again knowing that I have a loving Heavenly Father that loves me and you guys to vent and accept me.Hugs

[quitinoxys]

Congrats on day 6 thats great. As far as the back pain it will ease up some once your body realizes it's not going to get any opiates. Our brains trick us by creating more pain so it can get the opiates it craves. I went through the same process and after a couple of weeks I actually only felt about half the pain I did when I was on pain meds. The trick with melatonin is to get some sun during the day and then at night lay in a completly dark room with no distractions i.e. tv, radio etc; Ihope you feel better this evening and are able to get some sleep.

[ariley13]

I'm so sorry that you are having a bad day. We all have bad days from time to time. Even non-addicts have bad days! I think that we have to have bad days to truly appreciate the good days. Stay strong my friend and know that we all have your back. You are doing a fantastic job! Keep up all of your hard work. Here's to tomorrow, hoping it will be a better day for you!

[FourJays]

Aw, don't  feel bad or sorry; this is exactly what we are all here for; to support and encourage each other, in the good times and the tough ones!  You really are doing great and congrats on day 6!  I remember feeling just like you do now.  You are past the really acute detox symptoms but feeling exhausted because you probably aren't sleeping real well yet(?).  You should be very proud of how far you have come, and in time it WILL get better; it really will.  Once past the initial detox, sleep and emotional issues took some time.  It wasn't like I was just "better" at a specific time, it was more like a gradual lessening and 'lifting' of the anxiety and the depressing moods.  Sleep was even more elusive for me and did not really return completely for a month or so.  But every day got a little better and a little better.  So know that what you are feeling right now is normal and part of the process.  It WILL get better; your body and brain are healing more every day.  Think about the positive; the fact that you NEVER have to go through all of this again, and that each day is another day closer to getting your old self back.  Hang in there and keep posting anytime; you are not alone :}}