Day 3, going to see Dr. to "Get Honest"

[rwsmith]

O.K., so my fiance' and I have made the decision to taper. I was taking such a high dosage, CT just seems ouy of the question considering my job... I'm used to taking 15 10/325's a day and still not exactly sure my taper plan is the right one, but after getting advise from you all, I think my idea is good. Here's my plan that I want to propose to my doc, instead of 10's, I'm going to ask for 7.5's... start out at 8 per day for 4 days, then 6 per day for 4 days, 4 per day for 4 days 2 per day for 4 days, then 1 a day for 4 days then CT!!! Please tell me if this sounds like a do-able and appropriate gameplan? thats three weeks to freedom. Sunday was the last day of 150mg's of hydro's, then on Monday I went straight to only 5 and yesterday only 5, the pain and insanity is almost unbearable! Also, I do have some xanax for anxiety and sleep, but only want to take it if needed! Not looking to replace one narcotic with another! This is very hard to do and lots of pain, but I'm also releived and excite about getting my life back without the pills... What other vitamins could I take to help the WD's if any, and does this plan sound reasonable? I AM GOING TO DO THIS!!!!
Thanks to all,
russ

[NautyOne]

Nauty..........lol

[NautyOne]

God Bless, I admire your courage and strength to come clean and get sober the way you did........

I wish you all the best!

Luv,
Nutya..............

[rwsmith]

Hey Nauty, the taper schedule was my idea.... I want this to end quick and doc agreed. Aug.17 will be MY LAST PILL EVER!!!! Thanks,

Russ-

[NautyOne]

Hey, Russ?

Just curious, did your doctor make up this really fast taper, or was it your idea?  That is a verrry fast taper .......the clonodine does help some.

Congrats on getting your life back!...

luv,
Nauty...............

[jekorb]

Talk about "The Truth Shall Set You Free"!!!  It took me years and years to admit that I am an addict, first to myself, then to my family/friends, then to my doctor.  Where I expected looks of disgust, dislike and judgment, when I finally was able to lift my eyes to my MD's face to see his reaction, all I saw was deep concern and sympathy.  I was so relieved, I started to cry.  He told me that he and his medical colleagues were there to help and that he was PROUD of me for coming out with the truth, not only to him but to myself, as well.  He told me he could help me physically, but counselling and peer exchange, especially going to N.A., was going to be the saving of me, and that I had taken the biggest step of my life~~~the admission that I AM AN ADDICT AND I NEED HELP!  I felt tons of weight being lifted from my shoulders and from my soul.  I know that sounds like a cliche, but that's what it was and you felt it too, didn't you?  I am now into Day 5 of my Suboxone treatment (I knew I was not going to be able to go c/t because of the poor health of my gastric system; the side effects would have killed me), and while Sub has its own little nasty set of side effects, it is the saving of ME and I will forever be grateful to God, to my doctor(s), to my family, esp. my husband, and to my N.A. friends and support system.  I'm so very blessed and sooooo lucky!  God bless you, too, rwsmith; may you walk in the light of sobriety and love and make all the most of life.

[rwsmith]

Awsome Dr's visit today! it really feels good to get completely honest! my fiance' went with me as well and heard it all. Some news was bad, but all in all the truth shall set ME free!!!

So I am on a taper schedule, as oppossed to my normal dosage of 12-15 10's a day it is now:8 per day for 4 days, 6 perday for 4 days, 4 per day for 4 days, 2 and then 1 for 4 and then FREEDOM!!! He also recommended and prescibed me Clonodine .1mg once every 6 hours. I also picked up some melatonin, imodium and some multi-vitamins. Today is the start of truth and life without the HYDRO'S!!! I have no idea what that life is like anymore, but I do know it has to be better than the one I'm living now and can't wait to get there!!!

Thanks to all of you who gave me the advice I needed and for the strength to get me through this. I will post as much as possible and keep you all updated and hopefully will help some of you with my expierience through this merry-go-round!!!

Russ,

[HELPLESS30]

good for you!!!! i am now on day 4.  i went to the dr. yesterday and was honest with thelm and they were wonderful.  just saying it out loud to a medical professional made all the difference for me.  they did put me on klonipin for anxiety because mine was through the roof and they will be keeping close tabs on me throughout.  i went cold turkey so i can't give advice on tapering but if it works it works.  i had a full night of sleep last night and feel so much better.  good luck to you