feel normal

[Becca911]

Will I ever feel normal again? I mean, today is day 2 sober and I realize this is an addiction but when can I hope to not be thinking of pills and just living normal like I once did?

[hopsing94]

Hang in there,you are halfway there. There are other doc's out there but I know its hard to find one you can trust and that you like. You are doing the right thing by kicking this habit.

[Becca911]

Thanks for the insight, I have been taking about 5 to 6 lortabs daily for 2yrs, all because of heart surgery. I tried suboxen and didn't tell my doctor because I was ashamed of the problem and thought he would down on me, we had a close relationship, I could talk him  about anything. He was a great doctor and friend and then one day he called and asked why I was getting suboxen from another doctor and not telling him. He was very mad at me and said he could not be my doctor anymore because I could not admit I had an addiction problem.I tried to explain that I was taking care of the problem along and wanted privacy but he was done with me. It hurt so bad to lose someone whom had taken such good care of me. I was embrassed and felt like everyone in the clinic knew. Another DR. at the same clinic agreed to be my dr. knowing the situtation. This seemed to throw me further down the hole of addiction. So I stop the suboxen and to cover the pain I used the pills. Sorry to ramble on. Actually I am crying know thinking about what I have lost. Sorry, Becca

[SotiredIcantsleep]

I don't know what normal means to you, but if you are day 2 off pills you will feel orgasmic in a few days compared to what you feel now, mentally, and spiritually mostly, physically, not so much for me yet, today is day 8.  I'm just kind of tired and lethargic, it takes a lot out of me to do simple tasks, but my mental clarity and spiritual reawakening makes it so worth it.  I didn't even realize how deep in bondage I was on the pills until getting clean for a week.  I fly home tommarrow where temptation will be great but I know if I just hang tough for a few more weeks I will get back into my rythym and all will be well again.  going through a week of W/ds is absolutely worth the feeling I feel right now.  It's tough and you may need to force yourself like I did, delete #'s of dealers, flush all my pills and get on a plane somewhere far away :D

[hopsing94]

It depends on how long you were using the pills. Probably a couple more days til you start to feel better. For me once I started to feel better I didnt want any pills. That lasted about a week and then thought well just one or two. That didnt work out so here I am. Now for the last year i've been taking them 1. because I like the feeling 2. I dont want to go through the w/d's again. Sad,i know. Something different this time though. I am prepared to go through the w/d's and my life kinda sucks right now, all due to these pills. So my advice is hang in there,you can get through this, when you start to feel better it is such an awesome feeling. It's like a high,just to be normal again. Becca u can do this and so can I.-John