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i am prescribed lortab from pain clinic because of severe degenerating back problems, and as much as i need the meds to be able to continue working(26 yrs as a hairdresser) but the pain is so tremendous!!! JUST to get out of bed in the morning is a battle. But i see myself depending on these meds, and when i get low(because i take extra, lots extra)i start looking and wheelin and dealin to make sure i have what i THINK i need. For a while i caught myself reaching for a pill AS SOON AS I GOT UP, they were in the drawer right next to my bed!!!! They call it an 'eye opener'. So i told myself to wait as long as i can stand it in the mornings before i take one(or two or three), but its not just the chemical addiction anymore, its EMOTIONAL too, its like i constantly think of how many i have left before my next refill(which they never last that long) and i worry so much so i start making calls to make sure where and when etc i can get more. i am constantly trying to wait until the pain is excruciating before i take any. but it a circle: severe pain, crippling pain, I AM LOST ON THIS SITUATION, without them i am useless, but i have to work, i have to keep goin,
There are so many heartbreaking stories on this forum. I had no idea how bad pain pill addiction was. Yes, I had found out about people who take it for recreational use. I know there is a big market for them on the street, but just kind of knowing that and not really having to face the reality of the pain and suffering that they cause....until I came here and read the stories myself. This forum moves fast...every day new people...and no end to it. I realize we are not even seeing the tip of the ice berg....this problem is so vast and has affected almost everyone in some way. I say quit, if you can. Find a way to live without them. Easier said than done. My heart goes out to everyone who is struggling with these pills.
The first step is realizing you have an issue. You are on the right track and when the time is right - you will know. Just remember there are people here and collectively there is not one thing we cant relate to. I have been dealing with my chronic pain and drug addiction for over 20 years. I find i am once again in need of support. I am grateful all of you are here just not grateful for why all of us are here.
any comment that i posted above was meant for you also,this **** is ruining everyones life tht loves me. I can expain and justify but that does not make my addiction right nor does it me feel any better just because i know and admit what i am...... sadly now it is time to take a lortab and a valium. sorry,i'm dying here..........
i wake up and take 2 lortabs within 45 minutes....... i am a retired professional athlete that has really bad hips and back,but my scripts are for my headaches which are worse than the bsck pain.......i am always aware of how many i have and start the purchsse process before i am out. it does not matter to me if they sre 7.5 or 10.......and don't forget the valium kicker,that is the on that has me by the proverbial balls seeing as how i m a 40 yr olfd femsle that thank GOD still looks 30 something....but i have been addicted since 14 and abusing since 25. sorry just needed to ramble....
I can relate to taking one first thing in the morning. That is what I did. And eventually I was taking one about every four hours. I could see where this was leading me. I broke out in a bad rash, and that was what helped me decide to stop. The emotional part is part of the addiction. I don't know about managing pain in other ways....but many people here suggest doing that. When I first quit, I felt like I couldn't drag myself around, my knees hurt so bad. Every little ache and pain was magnified. I was totally miserable because I was afraid I would feel this bad forever. I wasn't ready to sit in a rocking chair the rest of my life. Heck, in my life, I can't do that. I have a lot to look after. Anyway, I can't answer your question for you....how bad your pain is and how you can manage. I do know that my own pain seemed much worse when I quit but it is not so bad now. I am able to manage mine with OTC meds and I seldom take them. You might try various other methods of controlling your pain and see how that works for you. If you are increasing your loratabs now, that trend will most likely continue. So it is best to get a handle on it while you can.
Welcome...
Your story is classic. But you are not alone...Over time the opiates became central in my life. I used to control it when I was first prescribed but soon it was running the show for me......
A good plan is in order. We can help you through the detox part, a lot of us been through it.....
The pain management I cannot advise because I have no experience with back pain...
Do stick around, there are people here with that experience...
Free~
Your story is classic. But you are not alone...Over time the opiates became central in my life. I used to control it when I was first prescribed but soon it was running the show for me......
A good plan is in order. We can help you through the detox part, a lot of us been through it.....
The pain management I cannot advise because I have no experience with back pain...
Do stick around, there are people here with that experience...
Free~
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