17 days - things are different this time

[greatescape13]

Hi,
I was on the forum a couple weeks ago and then had some computer/email/password issues, no longer under "jonsmom" account : )

Have just gone through my third cold turkey detox from pain meds in the last 11 years.  I have had both long periods (1-2 years) of sobriety and the same amount for periods of daily, out of control use.  Of course, the nature of the beast, time my addiction worsened and was harder to kick, this being the hardest.  

For those deciding to take the jump, it is nice not wondering if/when you are going to do it!  And after that it is what it is.  Very uncomfortable.  I followed the Thomas recipie and also had 4 days worth of Clonodine from my doctor.  I also took tylenol pm a few nights.  I think days 3 and 4 sucked the most, but as everyone says, it does get better each day.  Educate yourself on PAWS (post acute withdrawl symptoms), once I read the list it made me realize that what I was feeling was a normal (albeit ******) part of healing the brain.  

This time I got into individual therapy.  This time I have been to two NA meetings so far (a first for me!), this time I told my doctor.  This time I confided in a sober friend who I know will be a support.  My only goal each day is to remain sober. I have a lot of toxic ways of thinking and it is exhausting to challenge that, but my previous times I relied on time alone to heal me and eventually I ended up right back where I started.  

I can promise anyone reading this that you can make it 17 days if I can!  And sierrared if you are still out there, message me mama!

[YesLife4Me]

Ditto to what Ron says!     Goes to show you that we have to always be on guard and working our programs.   We can slip out so easily.   Glad you made it back again.  

[Norco1947]

Great Positive post . Thanks .. Ron