so depressed dont know what to do

[chubbers]

ok so i have been tapering for months now and i cant get passed this one dose from oxycontin. i am so depressed all the time i dont know what to do anymore. i always think eevryone is mad at me or wants nothing to do with me and i think its bc i hate myself so much i dont think anyone else likes me or wants to be around me. i push everyone away and im so depressed i dont even know what to do. someone please help me or talk to me i cant stop crying

[FAITHFUL74]

Hey, I am sorry you feel so down right now. This is a hard thing to do. I know just like one of the other post said, when I went to my last taper I started to d/t. Man it stinks.
I am sure all of the thoughts that noone likes you or wants to be around you is all thoughts that these stupid pills have put in your head. Of course people love you, I love and care for you and I dont even know you. I know God loves you and what more could you possibly need. That might not sound very helpful, but, if you believe at all, why dont you just try kneeling beside your bed and crying to God, he listens really well and he can give you strength! God Bless.

[electguy]

I know how you feel.  I am on day 4 of detox off of hydrocodone.  I went three days with about 2 hours sleep.  Everytime I  would look at my kids I would just start crying for no reason. I feel better mentally today but am real nervous feeling.  I did get some sleep last night with the help of ambien.  Sleep I think is the best medicine for WDs.  Do you have any family you can confide in or someone to help you thru this.  My wife was a godsend, she has really helped the last few days.  I obtained all my pills illegally about 250$ a week habit.  I try to look forward to what i can do with my kids with that money anf how life use to be and its helping me thru this depression.  I know I havent kicked it yet but i'm really trying. I have to go back to work tomorrow and really dreading it.  Also I found that walking helped take my mind off things and stop the crying, I quit crank and cocaine with very little problems but opiates is like nothing i have ever seen.  I pray i can beat this.  anyways if you have family close they can be so much help if its only rubbing you hands or a supportive word. We can beat this

[troubleinohio]

did u ever get back on anti-Deprssnts? i remember u saying u might. I really think u should. it was the only way i was able to overcome my severe depression and WD hysterics.

[Jacqui805]

I don't know exactly what to say except that when I started my last wean dose, I went into full-blown w/d.  There was another dose I had intended to go to after the last one I took, but I think it was really like the last step in the pool.  I mean, I was on that step with that dose, but I was still wet, and I had gotten significantly wetter than the previous step.  I realized at that point, I was halfway in the pool and took the plunge.  Those emotions can wreak some serious havock, and there's lots of reasons to have 'em.  Could be just your brain, that's not healed, in any way shape or form, your brain's receptors screaming at you for not giving it more, or you just kickin' yourself for what's happened to you, and who knows what else.  I do know that talking does help, you just need to find the right ear, and give it time.  Keep up that nutrition, and if you're able, sleep.  I'm here for you if you need a shoulder....Jacqui

[cathy5841]

chubbers, we are here for you.  what can we do to help you.  maybe a therapists can help you get to the root of why you use.  have you tried n/a or a/a.  some on here go all the time.  i have not tred it but it cant hurt.
cathy

[spacecadette]

I'm so sorry to hear your so depressed....what dose are you at? What dose did u taper from and how long have you been tapering?  THis is the toughest battle for most of us....there really isn't much we can do except talk to people...i know for me i read a lot of inspirational books and watched a lot of inspirational shows...i.e. dr. phil...as much as a lot of people hate him.....it's not him i watched it for but the stories of what people went through etc....unfortunately at this point in wd/tapering most people are so miserable and unhappy that they usually are not very friendly or easy to be around.....I know i wasn't for a long time...but it does come back....everything will change....remember that you are going through a HUGE change....your body and brain has been tricked into coping with life by blocking any form of feeling all this time...now they are being forced to rekinder the relationship with each other and feel, think, react, etc on their own....and guess what...they don't quite know how yet....so it will take time.....in order for your brain to re build all that is essential will take time.....your body doesn't know how to block pain anymore......it needs a sort of jump start but one that takes a while.....it's like a bad cut..with the right vitamins, ointments, bandaids, oxygen etc....it will heal..........keep posting....it helps to keep a diary...try to focus on the positive...what you want to do with your life...i know for me EVERYTHING is night and day from what it was....I never thought i'd be where i am today...and i was no less suicidal than anyone else on here....I prayed a lot to if you are religous at all....I don't know how many hail mary's i said....anyway...i'm here for you

[GoingToMakeIt]

Have you looked into supplements to help with depression. SamE 400mg, 5 htp, L-Tyrosine, Rhodiola. All of these can help. Talk to a supplement store and get something. Or if you are on anti depressants, talk with your Dr about a different dose or med. It is very common to get depressed during and right after withdrawals.
Hang in there.

[Flutterby111]

HOney, can you get some professional help?  It's ok....I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed uncontrollabley for over a week while detoxing....and now even though I'm clean I cry at least once a day-----I know about your story....you need to start thinking about some serious options!   What have you considered?  The tapering is really difficult for you? right?