first day on methadone detox...wish me luck!

[wolvey]

Hello all! This is my first time on any detox program, and I need all the support I can get! I have read through a few discussions on here and all of you have lead me to get help! Thank you all! I have been addicted to heroin, oxy contin, delaudids, roxy contin for 6 years now. Hope fully I can stay drug free after today!

[godezzofchaos]

Wolvey, I"m wondering what stae you live in...I'm in Tennessee and they start us off on 35mg and then u increase every other sday by 10 mg until u stabilize..usually by 80mg. Then you increase as needed and if the doctor sees fit. They also have a test called a "PEAK AND TROUGH (sp?)" this tell the doctor how quickly your body is metabolizing the methadone. People with HepC always need a higher dose because their livers are bad and much of the methadone is just washed away (so to speak). Anyway, it wasn't until I reached 140mg that I was able to get through the day and night, I have now been 150mg for 8 years and began the VERY SLOW detox (could take a year or more)...but I know ME, just like you know you. Get your life together, take one step at a time and you can do it! There are MANY who don't agree with methadone, but everyone is different and each has to do what works for them!  Had it not been for methadone I would have NEVER gotten clean. I was a single mom, no family , didn't know a SOUL in this town and I could NOT lay sick..I had to care for her and put food on the table. So that was MY way.  I hope it works for you too..message me anytime with questions or if you just need support!  I MEAN THAT!  Hang in there kiddo!

[wolvey]

GODEZZOFCHAOS YOU ROCK! Yeah I looked into another clinic that is more reasonable and does not think I am asking for a higher dose because I am a junkie! I just know that my cravings are really bad and my withdrawals are even worse! The only reason why I went to this clinic is because the place I wanted to go originally did not have a doctor in on Fridays and won't until Tuesday! I was like you know I am going to hook up if thats the case! So I had to go to this clinic and the doctor was just not cool and said 30 is the highest and to take it or leave it basically. Ofcourse I took it because I was about to puke right there! Plus no money to hook up even if I wanted to. So I am going to have to wait till Tuesday to change clinics and be able to up my dose. Hopefully I can stay strong until then because I am feeling ****** and want to hook up soooo bad! Its gonna be 10 more hours until my next dose! AGHHHHH! God help me! I am going bananas! All I am doing is watching Bullets over Broadway by Woody Allen! How bored am i!? I really need something but know I can't! Don't worry folks! I am gonna stay strong tonite even though I probably am going to stay up all night and morning till my next dose! Wish me luck and thank you I love you all!

[godezzofchaos]

I have been reading this forum for sometime now, and while everyone is usually VERY VERY supportive, many don't feel that Methadone is a form of recovery....I 100% disagree. I myself have been on methadone for a LONG time, I am on a MMT (methadone maintence treatment) and it was a lifesaver.  I have been on the same 150mg dose for MANY years and have a very successful career, and family life...methadone doesn't have to be a CURSE!  I have worked my program EXACTLY how it should be worked and have never touched another drug nor do I drink.  Unfortuantly, it sounds like your doctor is not well schooled on how methadone works.  Yes, you should start off on a low dose, but one does not even receive the opiate blockage until 80mg..therefore a person on a lower dose tends to continue to crave and is not successful in stabilizing.  Research has also shown that although many believe that staying on a lower dose will help them detox FASTER and EASIER..this is not true because they never fully stopped craving to begin with.

Once you have become stable and have rebuilt your life you can begin a VERY slow detox off of the methadone..so slow it is not noticeable..which is exactly what I do. I am SLOWLY detoxing just 2mg a week...that is MY PLAN and works for me.

Please don't everyone attack me either..I've heard it all, all I am saying is that my recovery is no less an accomplishment than anyone elses ( I stil had to make the decision, I had to change the people, places , and things I did)..I just wasn't sick, and that is what got me through. Now onto my new journey...GOOD LUCK WOLVEY!  If you have any questions..feel free to ask!!

[diane001]

can't find where i was before. it is getting confusing. the sweats are getting bad. and my stomach won't let me eat much. i am really dreading bedtime

[diane001]

my daughter is home from school and needs computer. i'll check back later

[wolvey]

yeah I am def. re-scheduling and saying I have the flu. I am gonna take some vitamins and exercise until then. But it's weird for this company they actually kind of want you to look like you have been using! They like skinny pale hipster kind of men. So who knows they might like the new me? Hahaa!