Day 7 and still going

[TS8777]

Well I did not sleep at all. My eyes and body are so tired, but my mind just won't let them rest.  Have to put my big girl pants on and truly face the world for the first time sober today. I have class from 1030am tin 1230pm. God please give me strength to make it thriough this day. I want to sleep so bad. My husband is getting depressed because I have not wanted to be around him. I stayed in the bedroom all night and he slept on the couch. I made him dinner last night for the first time since I have started withdrawals. He came home and ate and truly did not say but maybe 5 words to me. This hurts so bad, but all I can do is get better. If I lose him in this process than that's just what will have to happen. I know I am doing this so I can be a better person and I am fighting for my own life. Everyone please pray for me. I am losing some hope, but I just keep moving forward. Thank you

[Cricketk92]

Hey Tina! How did class go? Been thinking about you all day!! Let us know!! XO Karen

[Danny111]

Great job making it this far.  The depression and the feelings of hopelessness are just the drug talking.  You have to try to push your mind away from those thoughts each time they pop up.  Your husband isn't going anywhere.  Nobody would leave their wife just because she was distant and uncommunicative for a couple of weeks.  The drugs trick your mind into coming up with reasons that you have to use, ie if I don't use my husband will leave.  It's bs.  The way to lose your family and everything important is to continue down the road of addiction.

[motye51]

Again, try to give yourself a break. 7 days is awesome and u need to keep pushing forward but im going to tell u something soneone told me in the beginning.....please dont think your going to use for years and then in 5/10 days everythings going to be right again.....in real life thats nit how it works....i wish it did, but.....
I wanted to also mention that if you can get to school, u can get to aftercare! If staying clean is as important to u as i think it is, this is something u will have to do. You cant use willpower and this forum as a substitute. Theres nothing to compare to face to face interaction. We are support....aftercare is learning how to deal with life on lifes terms which is something we need to learn.
Keep trucking forward!!!! Push, push, push....

[refills]

Don't even day you're losing hope out loud. This is just a crazy thought you have. It's not reality. Your husband stuck around for the crazy you, he will stick around for the REAL you. Here you are making dinner, trying to stay strong. You deserve a big CONGRATULATIONS. Way to go. Keep up the great work. This is good.

[CRSeaside]

Yes. I love to pray & will pray for you.
   I think your husband will stick around.
Remember our emotions are raw and on the surface while our brain adjusts.