I've lost count of the times...

[Saccade]

that I have tried this.

Doctors are not helping - just prescribe more drugs.
Am staying home with benzo's to cold turkey off codeine and tramadol.

Problem is - wife is home. She is major pain in arse. will always harass me and poke me. Wish she'd leave me alone for a few days. If I tell her, she will get in bad mood.

Suicide is an option.

[Saccade]

let's see if the computer helps.

[10356]

welcome to the forum.. I can tell you from the experience of loosing a loved one from suicide it is a poor option and one that will permanently cancel any tomorrows.. think your wife would be in a bad mood if you told her you need space.. and this concerns you ?? Think of the devastation you would leave behind if you were to choose this option.. Getting clean is a selfish process and if you **** a few off so be it you can explain it better when you are thinking clearly.. I hope the above statement was in jest as wd is daunting but not impossible.. reach out for support.. vent when poked we will help you through this process.. on the other side od addiction life is actually really good.. I have found great joy where I thought I never would again.. I wish you well and Please if you are serious.. seek medical help for depression ok.. be kind to yourself.. lesa

[10356]

that is on the other side of life... not od :(

[kawaii33]

Good for you Saccade. you are finally breaking free! Don't let your wife get in the way. Can you just tell her you are sick with the flu and if she comes near you the chances are you will hurl all over her? Maybe you could dry heave a little around her or something. Does she know what you are doing? If she does then just telling her you don't want to be around anyone should work I would hope that she would honor that knowing you are making a huge step in starting a new life.