going on day 4 CT

[quinner]

I am currently on day 4 of my battle CT off of oxys.  I think anyway?  This has been a brutal ride and i still dont see the light as i feel horrible.  I started a new post as the other one was getting pretty long.  I thank all who have followed me and supported me in this wild ride.  I have an invite to a cottage (cabin) in the country by my relative for this weekend. i think that will be peerfect for me just to get away from this place.  I just hope my WDs have subsided by then because its still looking gloomy for me.  keep following me if you wish guys snd thanks again.

[healthy_living]

Can I just tell you I am so proud of you.,
I myself have relapsed and that Fact that you have kept going gives me hope and makes me want to try again! Keep going and don't give up, you give me hope that I can be strong enough to even get to where you are now

[dominosarah]

This weekend will be just what you need.  We will be waiting for an update when you get back.  Enjoy yourself~~~~~sara

[quinner]

Cant sleep i have no energy, my arms feel weak, but all this HAS TO CHANGE. Tomorrow morning, as i mentioned, i will be off to my couisins cottage.  I am dying to get away from the hustle and bustle of the big city. I cant wait to just relax without any distractions.  In case i dont post in the a.m. my thoughts and prayers will be with all of you who helped through this ordeal.  I cant wait to talk to you all on monday. Please look out for me on this forum as i consider you all my friends now. MY prayers are with you all. God bles and c ya soon,

Quinner

[duluthguy]

My thoughts are with quinners right now, after this unreal anguish goes away, i will deal with staying off... this is driving me nuts!! stay strong...

[quinner]

I never read anyone tell me getting off is easy, it is damn hard as far as staying off i'll deal with that bridge when i get to it. Ineed some energy, any advice please.

[Ballgame]

They getting off is easy, staying off is hard. That's BS, getting off is a b@tch!!

[DayToTry]

A brick wall?  Holy crap quinner you've come so far don't give up now.  Yeah I think its normal to get kind of down.  You're really starting to get tired about this point from not sleeping well and I think that kind of aids those mind games.  We are all so excited for you.  I'd say try taking a walk, but that's just not gonna work for you right now!  Do you have any good movies you could watch to rest for awhile?  If you have cable have you ever checked out the FREE movies on movies on demand?  They're old but if you haven't seen them.

[gnarly_1]

Hey dude so happy your starting to see a glimmer of light you should really start to come around here in the next day or so...sorry to here about the gout flaring up I have 2 herniated disks in my back that went nuts when I went threw it...a lot of it is whats  called rebound pain
its amplified pain that feels worst then it is this can last a wile but as your body starts to make endorphins again it will subside a bit...most of us find we do better off narcotics then on them hang in there your doing great keep pushing forward......Gnarly  

[duluthguy]

The mind games are almost unreal, how the mind and body do not want to let go... I am sorry to hear about the gout, I really hope you can keep fighting the good fight!! I keep thinking of this process as a war, each craving overcome as a battle won, but knowing another battle will crop up at the least expected moments... I'm in it for the long haul, i hope you will be there with me-

[quinner]

It seems like i just hit a brick wall, ive lost all my energy, and my mood has suddenly changed.  Is this normal? Is there anything i can do?

[quinner]

it can last anywhere from 2-3 days to 1 week depending on severity of inflammation.  This outbreak is kinda severe

[DayToTry]

I wouldn't alternate them in the same day though.  If you're already taking something I'd just stick with that.  How long does gout last?  

[quinner]

Doesn't it always seem that things get worse before they get better.  I take Indomethacin, an NSAID, for my gout but it doesnt help all the other aches, just the inflammation in my foot.  I know i cant mix Ibupprofen with that med (Can really damage stomach) but maybe i can alternate them. I have to ask pharmacist. Foots definately made things more difficult. Thanks for the kind words.

[DayToTry]

Quinner its so good to hear you sounding positive.  See you did it!  And you'll just continue to feel better as the days pass.  Sorry about your gout.  That came at a bad time didn't it.  Will Ibuprofen help?

[quinner]

You can do this  too!! You are only two days behind me, If i can do it so can you because i always take the easy way out. I was going to try meth/suboxone route untill the friends i met here directed me the right way. Its hard as hell but the end will be worth it all.  It helped me to just let my emotions flow when they overpowered me, try and do the same, just let it out!! It helped me immensly. The last two days i have been battling gout in my foot, its very painful and it would have been easy for me to quit.  I have to crawl to the bathroom at times because i cant put weight on my foot.  You got this man. Read my other threads for more support, there are many words of encouragement given to me the last few days. Better yet start your own post so evereyone knows where to reach you. I will be looking out for you.  You stay strong and keep the eye on the prize!! All the best Duluth!

[roughroad]

Glad to hear that you finally see the light. Never forget how hard it was to get there because that is the key to your sobriety. Putting your energy back into your kids is great and there is no better gift you can give them then that! Sure you have some more work to do but you have made it through the hardest part. It just gets better and better from here.

[mommymom1105]

Stay..... Strong...... Focus !!!!

[duluthguy]

I am very emotional right now too... I'm glad my words gave you at least one second of comfort, I need all I can get right now as well- Your story matches mine alot, i want to be the best role model for my kids that I can possibly be- I don't want to have the mood swings the pills gave me, the aches and pains, the emotional roller coaster, trips cancelled because my new pills were coming on a day we would have been gone, the secret life that i dared not share, my life and the life of my family were ruled by this horrible drug- i'm praying for all that are in need of a boost, please pray for me-

[dominosarah]

Keep following that light as it will get brighter and brighter~~~~sara

[quinner]

I chose duluth's answer as the best one for me because it really hit home, i am so emotional right now it is hard for me to find the right words.  I dont want to take anything away from all of the rest of you because you people are the ones that made me come this far. God bless you all, i can see the light now.

[quinner]

I feel the same shame as you, everything gone in your life has left mine too.  I am so inspired by your words.  The first thing I''m going to do sober is build a backyard hockey rink for my two kids and just get the joy out of watching them play on it over and over again. THANK YOU duluth because you just gave me that extra drive i really needed to break  through the final wall. God bless you man!  All the best!!!!!!!!!

[quinner]

Did you start your immoidum already, do you have those symptons yet?

[dominosarah]

I would stay within the prescribed dose.