First , welcome to the forum..i just read your post, and my heart just broke when i read your story...mostly about your husband and how you feel stuck..
i have only taken ultram once and i never felt anything, and sometimes i wonder how can someone get addicted to them?? but i guess if i would have started on that instead of lortabs it would be different..i do read where withdrawals are bad..
i guess you have to make your own decision on that one, but we are always here to listen no matter what...
There was something you wrote about if an earthquake came and pharmacies would be closed...i really took that to heart and i will tell you why, where i live we were hit by all hurricanes..Thanks god at that time i was not addicted YET!! but i can tell you all pharmacies were closed and the ones that weren't were all broken into..Doctors could not be found..hospitals were so damaged it was not an option for anyone..i swear you good spot the addicts walking the streets everywhere..They were all in w/d's..now i know wht they must of been going through..i have horrible migranes , and i take imitrex, not a narcotic, and thank god i had a good bit because with everything going on i had them everyday...But if i would of been out , tough luck, i would have had to deal with them..i also read that you get them so you know where i am coming from of how bad it is...There were cops everywhere, even the national guards walking the streets..Stores were getting broken into and houses..i was always so scared..
Now that i am a addict i think back of those days..And what would i have done if i had no pills...W/d's would have been the only answer..Are what about the people that had real pain and i mean real, what they had to go through breaks my heart..But like i said i never thought much about it until i was addicted..At that time i was just worried about "when will my kids ever go back to school"? When will we ever get electricity?? ice?? water?? so thinking of all that i can't imagine going through w/d's with that...
Anyway i know i got off topic but wanted to tell you that when you wrote that it made me think alot..
i wish you only the best, and only you can decide if you want to quit..But even if you don't, we are all here for you...
God bless you
R2R