Good Morning All....Just an update

[bucksfan]

Well I am about 6 more days away from making it the longest I have with the least amount of tabs/vics/percs/oxy in 5 years. In 17+ days I took a 15MG roxi on my 4th day after stopping them and then about 10 days later I took 3 lortab 5s. I am sleeping a solid 7 hours a night but still have anxiety and motivation/energy issues but nothing that I cant handle. I will say that my stomach is still messed up which is strange because that usually went away in a few days. Anyways, in a few hours I will be starting my fifth day since I last slipped up. I know its not a straight 17+ days of clean time but how about some encouragement for only using 30MG in that amount of time or only using on two days in that amount of time? Like I said I have not had 24 days of no use in a month period in 5 years.  I still know the hardest part is ahead....I still feel foggy but I think the fog is just normalcy and its foreign to me. My emotions are stable now which also becomes hard...we all know the Euphoria that we get during the battle. I am going to make an effort to keep posting and truly want to thank Avis, DominoSara and the others who have inspired so many for so many years. As I have said in the past, when it comes to this site I am a taker. I think 90% of the people who post here are. Its the other 10% such as Avis, Domino etc..that are the true givers and I think everyone should take the time to thank them for their dedication and sincerity. I have always had strong will and I cannot promise you I will make it 30 days clean, or 60 days clean but I will promise you that each morning I wake up, I will fight with every ounce of my being not to use. For those that slipped up and felt ashamed, please do not. I respect each and everyone one of you that want to quit or are trying to quit regardless of how many attempts it has been.  

[vicki595]

Good work on those 5 days!!   I'll bet you feel wonderful !!!

Vicki

[dominosarah]

Thank you for the kind words bucksfan.  It's nice to hear.  You are right, we cant promise 30 days clean etc as all we have is today and today we have chosen to stay clean.  We are so very lucky that we have that choice.  Protect your clean time with your life and make it the most sacred thing you have.  Hope your stomach issues clear up soon.  Keep moving forward!!!          sara

[LeaAnn807]

You are doing good!  But how many clean days do you have?  You should count them and be extremely proud!  Don't just say, "well in this amount of days I have used twice."  Start counting at that last use, and be proud of yourself.  We are all proud of you..no matter how many days you have, but you need to know for you!  That way, when you get to 30, 60, 90 or whatever, you can CELEBRATE!  

It is a big accomplishment!!!