what a horrible slow agonizing withdrawl

[hooked31]

Day 25 clean from methadone after a 16 day taper . I felt better at the beggining of the week . Went swimming cut some trees down . Now the last three days I can't get out of bed . Been thinking about just taking a pill and I'll feel better . Not gonna but I could really use some encoragement right now ..

[hooked31]

Thanks for taking the time to post . I have no pills in my house . More and more taking a pill is a fantasy that interupts my day than a conscience plan of action . I can't help but think about it once and a while .  Especially on a really low day . But I am forever committed to sobriety . It is a wonderful thing to post on this site when you feel like total sh*% and have so many people care . Never would have thought . Thanx

[LeaAnn807]

"What scared me out of it and what I hope scares you is if we take a pill or open a bottle, we're going to have to start all over again. I CANNOT do that!! I hope I never forget what I've gone through these past 19 days and what I still have to go through before I feel like a human being again."

VERY well said Mike_M!!!  Congrats on your clean time too!

[Mike_M_70]

Forgot to mention......I got rid of the bottles a few days ago. I don't know why I was hanging onto them but they sure didn't need to be within my reach. Actually, I think I do know why I was hanging onto them......I'm an addict and that's what addicts do.

[Mike_M_70]

I'm really glad you posted today. I understand what you're going through and just to know there's someone else out there going through the same thing I am just makes me feel like I'm not alone. I did a long taper at a clinic from 155mg. down to 5mg. until I jumped 19 days ago. I knew from what I heard and read that it wasn't going to be easy but the withdrawals still surprised me and they were more than I expected, much more. When I stopped, I still had a couple of unopened take home bottles in my house. There were a couple of times I thought about using them to help with the feelings I was having. What scared me out of it and what I hope scares you is if we take a pill or open a bottle, we're going to have to start all over again. I CANNOT do that!! I hope I never forget what I've gone through these past 19 days and what I still have to go through before I feel like a human being again. This whole experience have been very hard on me and my family. What keeps me going is I know at some point things are going to get better. In fact I've been having some good moments lately. It's like a cloudy day and the sun peaks through for a few minutes every now and then. If you're not going to any AA or NA meetings I would strongly suggest doing some. They've been helping me a lot lately.

[laurel453]

ooooppss sorry, i just hijacked the thread ...

[laurel453]

hi John...

you can read the thomas recipe and the amino acid protocol ( health pages on the right side)... take what it may help you and leave the rest...

and congrats on your 4th day, you have taken the best decision, keep being positive, this is a mental battle at most and being positive and reinforcing ourselves mentally is half and a quarter of the battle :)

good luck !!

you can start with some magnesium chelated+calcium supplements...

potassium rich food... apple/orange juice  , bananas, spinach, raisins, nutcrackers..

a good chicken soup, tomato soup, eat as healthy as possible ...some protein shakes.

drink a lot of fluids to keep you hydrated ... gatorades, green tea, tonic water

Hylands restful legs to help you with RLS

maybe some natural stuff to help you with sleep like melatonin and valerian root ( good for anxiety too).

lots of hot baths ( with epsom salts if you have them ...)

and keep posting and telling us how are you doing , OK?

good luck !! :)

[IBKleen]

Hi John & Welcome,

Before anyone speaks with you and hijacks this thread, why don't you start your own post. That way it will be yours exclusively and we can get to know you and help you. If you stay here we get confused as to who we are talking to. At least I know I do.

You can go to the top of this page and hit the green "Post A Question" button. The instructions are easy. Hope you see you ...

[johnEdoe]

Just to be clear, I was speaking of methadone when I said 2.5mg

[johnEdoe]

Hello, I am a 28 year old man, new to the site and am in need of a bit-o-help myself. I am coming off of a 2+ year slow reduction of meds, following 7+ years of taking 300+mg of o/c, roxi, or a bundle of 'd' every 2-3 hrs. I found a DR who was willing to save my life and we managed to get me down to 2.5mg approx evry 6hrs. I was doing so well I was even forgetting to take me meds, so I decided it was time. Now I'm on day 4+ of withdrawl and it seems to get better then worse. Any sugguestions for easing the pain. I am avoiding benzo's at all cost(I have heard enough stories).
Is there anything I can do, or any estimates of time before I fell any better?  

[LeaAnn807]

WOW!  25 days is so great!  Hang in there.  Methadone is a tough one to kick.  And YOU are doing it.  Don't keep pills around, ok?  It is just a test that you don't need to take right now or ever!  I don't have anything mind altering in my house.  Just too risky!  

You're doing awesome!  Hang in there!

[skmedlin27703]

Stay strong. You are almost there.  You are doing the right thing by keeping yourself busy to keep your mind off the whole thing.  Keep on keeping on... Good luck.

[6stringrock]

Hang in there hooked. I thinks it's awesome you are on day 25. You should have some self confidence just getting to that point. Continue being an inspiration for those like me who did pop that pill and fell off the wagon. Not a good feeling.

[IBKleen]

Any day off of Methadone is a good day, but day 25 is just down right awesome! You have to expect that you are going to have down time but you are at the point where the good will out weigh the bad so hang in there for that.

You talked about taking a pill. First, I hope you don't have anything hanging around. The temptation will make you crazy all by itself. If you are thinking about buying some, save your money. What that one pill will do to you physically is one thing and what it will do to you mentally could destroy all you have worked for here.

Hang in there and it will soon be over. Keep talking and keep yourself busy to take your mind off of it. I hope you stick around.