Day 14

[ribs2k]

It's another early morning and I am thankful to be clean still. I pray I can stay clean again today and stay strong. It has really been a daily battle but it is true you seem to feel better every day. I so appreciate the positive thoughts and encouragement. This place is part of the reason I have been able to get this far. I go on monday to talk to a shrink about this and why the hell I started in the first place. Oh and maybe talk a little bit about my cancer recovery too. I don't recommend starting withdrawals 6 days before a chemo treatment. Whew it was rough for a minute!!!!

[littlebit667]

It will probably kick you back into withdrawals.  The anxiety is so hard.  Can your doctor help with some anxiety meds??  

[ribs2k]

I am came home today feeling terrible. The anxiety is overwhelming. If I were to take 2 Tramadol would that start my WD's over or could it help ease them? I just feel desperate at 14 days. I know I don't have much longer but this *****

[minn66]

I agree with AJ. You are such a strong, brave person. I honestly don't know if I could have done that. I would like to think I could, but I have my doubts. You have demonstrated that if you really want it, one can do it in spite of anything. And you are following up with counseling. Great job and hope you have a good day!

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

ur a true inspiration putting ya life back together n fighting cancer doing chemo a true amazing soul you r one of gods fallen angels i hope today is good for you huni stay strong Im blessed to be able to call you a friend your friend in oz aj xoxoxoxo