im drowning here cant take this

[shortyma336]

can someone please tell me when does the worst of the methadone wd hit you ive read some who are on it long term dont start to feel wd till 3 days after they jump i was only at 15 for 3 weeks after long pill use i went to 10 4 days ago and every night the wd hits and it gets worse every night i go every am to dose and it helps during the day but at night lord every muscle is jumping and knots and on fire my head hurts my stomach cramping in and out of the bathroom. im freaking out i started to feel the drop the day after i did it day 2 and been dying since then. is this wd im getting at night the worst it gets or is this just a taste of whats to come i cant imagine worse iv quit pills  b4 never was it this bad i dont know why this is so bad for me. if this is as bad as wd gets i cant see doing 2 or 3 more weeks of this i will lose my mind i know myself its like having the worst flue for a month. am i keeping myself in the throws of acute wd? or am i realy saving myself a wd i cant even imagine. i dont know if its my matabolism being so fast that keeps me in wd every night i dont think i can do this for 3 more weeks its not easing up but at the same time i couldnt handle if i didnt go dose tomorrow and the wd doubled and then got even worse day 3 after jump like most say it does i cant imagine how bad that would be this is killing me. i dont have the option of slowing down i am on xanax too long to ct from it and its too dangerous to stay on it and meth. they knew i was on it when i started. i didnt know the danger till it was too late.i dont see a way to survive this either way seems like the imposible i realy dont get how this drug works. im confused what will happen if i jump what will happen if i stay on my detox taper??? i cant trust the doc to tell me the truth my clinic is bound and determined to keep everyone who pays on meth for life they say whatever crazy thing they have to to keep you there. he isnt going to help make this easy or make it work he wants me to fail and stay at all costs so where do i turn please someone help i feel like giving up i cant take this long agony and not knowing whats coming min to min and not having a doc i can trust to tell me the truth. so i have no idea what my future looks like jumping or staying on taper according to him its going to get worse either way i need to stay on for at least a year then spend another year or 2 tapering that is IF i dont stay on as a lifer which he thinks is the only way to success. you can see what im dealing with from him. im lost scared what do i do who can i turn to  for truth/help??????

[atthebeach]

i am glad you are feeling better today. things always are better in the daylight. to help you along stay active,healthy eating,take supplements and drink protein shakes.
do you plan on dropping 1mg tomorrow, to 9mg? in the lower numbers they usually do drop by 1mg.
stay strong. you are breaking free.keep the faith,
sending hugs,prayers,hope,support,
debbie

[shortyma336]

I got some good sleep and feel a lil better this morning still hurting but tolerable. I go start the rest of my taper tomorrow.i guess i leveled out some i must have because I felt pretty OK before I went to dose this morning!  Thank god if this taper doesn't work I might have to go back to the pills to taper but I am going to give this my all.thank you all for your support it helps so much! Ithink having a lil melt down actually helped ihaven't been able to cry in months even if i needed or wanted to and i think crying releases endorphins.I'm scarred but hopeful that since I'm going slower the rest of thr way 1mg at a time every 3 days it will work out better than 5mg jumps.

[shortyma336]

I got some good sleep and feel a lil better this morning still hurting but tolerable. I go start the rest of my taper tomorrow.i guess i leveled out some i must have because I felt pretty OK before I went to dose this morning!  Thank god if this taper doesn't work I might have to go back to the pills to taper but I am going to give this my all.thank you all for your support it helps so much! Ithink having a lil melt down actually helped ihaven't been able to cry in months even if i needed or wanted to and i think crying releases endorphins.I'm scarred but hopeful that since I'm going slower the rest of thr way 1mg at a time every 3 days it will work out better than 5mg jumps.

[vicki595]

You know this sounds like a hot mess for you!  And we're so limited with our advice...but I'll tell you what:  If this were me, I'd stop the stupid methadone right now, find a doctor to prescribe some Hydrocodone 5 mg, and I'd continue to taper with that. It just makes sense to me. But, again, that's just me.

Think it over. Dump those fools! Feel better and good luck to you!

[atthebeach]

hey how are you feeling today? you are in my thoughts and prayers

[gnarly_1]

HI......the problem your having is you droped to much at once you went from 15 to 10 thats 1/3 of your total dose I sent you some info if you follow it things will smooth out get on the calcium /magnesium/zinc vitimims in a few days it will really cut down on your withdrawal there 6 bucks at walmart and the best thing I have found to fight off withdrawals
you should start to stabilize here in a day or 2 and things should smooth out for you message me if you have any questions......Gnarly