Dear powder whopped,
I am not an addict, but I feel for you deeply. I seem to be one of the few people awake, so I'll do the best I can. How about the emergency room or a detox program? My daughter went to detox twice for heroine third time she detoxed in jail. You say you have nobody to talk to, or is it that you don't want to tell? Please if there is any friend or relative to drive you to a hospital ASK FOR HELP. Call a local NA or AA if you have no one. Somebody cares enough to help you. Call a suicide hotline if you have to. YOU ARE KILLING YOURSELF. Desperate situations call for desperate measures.PLEASE SEEK HELP NOW.Do not give up keep making phone calls til you find the person that will help. I know from my daughter that it is hard to get into rehab or treatment without insurance or $$$ or there is usually a long waiting list. GET ON THE LIST NOW. In the mean time TIE A KNOT AND HANG ON. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I won't be home today. but I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.Everything can be OK for you.
i replied to your last post about this i duno if you saw it though..but NO ONE can tell you how close to an overdose you are..that all depends on your tolerance to the drugs and how much more of a beating your body can take without failing. il tell you though if you dont stop..an overdose is INEVIDABLE, its going to happen. our bodies can take a beating but only for so long. you need to find help NOW before its too late. tell people that you are close to that you trust n reach out for help.
i just read your reply to you last thread...sounds like you have put a hole rite through the septum of your nose! also cocaine use enlarges your heart and as you know put ALOT of strain on it too. i was a cocaine addict about 2years ago and eventualy started getting massive nose bleeds and i went to the ER and had to get my nose corterized to stop the bleeding! wich made me stop snorting it...wich only lead me to cooking it and smoking the cocaine instead!! wich made my habbit alot more addicting! im thinking you obviously need all that sleep your getting when you detox cuz youv been awake for so many weeks doing cocaine so your body needs the rest. maybe you shoulgo inpatient if you can..or at least outpatient and get a counselor etc...you have to make some kind of positive step before you totaly destroy yourself