leaving

[day143]

Well I guess I'm not serious about quoting just naught ten vicoden and took 5 guess ill be back when I'm serious....good luck to everyone don't be peice of **** like me

[kyle505]

First of all, cut the drama...You're not a piece of ****; you are an addict struggling with something that hundreds have struggled with for many, many years. As I've posted before, I failed for over 15 years. During that time I tried to stop, but wasn't able - actually, I wasn't ready, really didn't want to.
If this isn't your time, well, then it isn't your time, but don't put yourself down or feel ashamed. At some point, hopefully very soon, you'll decide that you are really ready, and then you'll do it. Now, having said that, you have to understand that you are killing yourself, bit by bit, each day that you use. You are also gambling with the people that you love, jobs, etc. And as you get older, detox gets harder. You've made some progress - you've started posting on this forum, so that's a positive thing. Think about it. It doesn't get any easier.

[conhall]

Sarah  and IBKleen gave you good advice about maybe instead of looking for sponsor for him look for you its time now to take care of yourself also.
And telling him the truth would probably help you alot.
Wouldnt you want him to tell you and look at you for support. You can both be there and support each other. Strength comes in numbers. And this way if he knows maybe he can understand what your going through and you will be held accountable not only to yourself but to each other.  
keep posting and I am sending you strength and support.

[hangetsu]

"I'm not telling my boyfriend..."

I think that's a wise move. Get rid of the rest of the hydros if you haven't already so as not to make matters worse and forge ahead. Learn from this and try not to make the same mistake down the road.

[day143]

Thank you all of you so much...I'm not telling my boyfriend not because I want to lie to him but because he would be hurt and I DO NOT want to jeopardize his sobritey in anyway...I will try again and I'm attending a na meeting at 5:00 today

[akitagurl12]

DON'T GIVE UP!!!!  NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES IT TAKES!

[hangetsu]

You might as well stick around. The 5 Vicodin you have left will be gone tomorrow, or should be by the time your bf gets home.

What are you going to tell him? I've been in treatment over 10 times and never made it much over a month after I got out before I used again. I think if my gf told me she had used the day before it would tempt me to start using again, not that I'm advising you to lie to him. It's that I don't know if 2 addicts can keep each other clean or will only end up contributing to each others addiction. My first wife went along with me not wanting to drink or use when I first got out but when I caved didn't try to stop me and seemed glad I did so she could too..

Best of luck to you both.