I hope I will be corrected very soon if what I am write here now is wrong. Here is my understanding of Vicodin and similar (recreational) usage. Initially, the Vicodin are exactly as you said, rose-colored glasses. They make the mundane fun, vacations glorious, and give one energy to accomplish minor tasks such as gardening, laundry, or cooking. All of this is done with a glad heart. Soon enough, the perscriptions run short and dosages increase. Then, the addictive behavior kicks in harder and harder and harder. It's no longer fun to do the mundane cooking, chauferring (sp), or cleaning. One becomes happiest when selfishly alone: reading a book, playing the net, listening to music, or being isolated with a favorite solitary activity. After quitting pills, and forcing myself to get off my butt and exercise and do tasks with others again, slowly my heart began to sing. Now the leaves are greener, the birds are louder, and the smiles are genuine. The knees still ache, the feet still throb (but Hell! this is a natural part of aging, isn't it?), and tho' I hate worn adages, they are good ones: "This too shall pass." "Half measures availed us nothing." Those sayings run through me when I start "stinking thinking," such as: "withdrawal is only 5 days," or "one pill won't hurt; I can use responsibly," and the worst lie, "I can stop". I am not a writer and ramble as I have in this post. You are in a good place, Nana, if you have recognized a problem early. I refused to see the problem for a long time.
r.wc.
This is a multi-purpose post!!LOL
Suzie---Thanx for askin' about me---I am doin' quite well in my sobriety. Have some heavy-duty **** goin' on w/ my marriage but I am workin' on it. Now that 'm out of the fog, things are mighty scary!!!LOL While I am not an AA fan (I'm sure you've picked up on that!) it seems to be working for you and that's what counts. Keep up the good work!!
Doner--I replied to you down below about your partner staying on meth so as not to tempt you. My reply was nothing profound but please know I gave it some thought and wanted to help. Then, of cours, the thread was closed so that's why I wasn't sure if you saw it. I can't help you about the leg pain/depression correlation, but maybe someone else can. Anyway--Hope you keep posting and hang in there.
Dancin' ---You knucklehead you!! Good to hear from you!! Are you still struttin' your stuff over at DA?? It's good that you pop in here every once in awhile or I'd have to go over there and drag yo ass out......You sound good!! Stay in touch!
Alexis---I think about you from time-to-time and I trust that you will kept us updated......You seem to be having a time w/ the benzos, and that shoulder pain needs to be looked at, so I'm glad you're seeing someone. Let me know what comes of all that. Sounds like you're getting geared up for when your final hydro RX runs out.....Keep in close touch w/ me and I'll give you all I got....:-) I'll make a note of your email, if that's okay..... Thinkin' of you, Sweets--
Hey to Anne, rodewc, passenby (where are YOU??) and lisabet, percs, billy, mrm, methman and EVERYONE!!! I love you peeps!!
Hey you--I posted to you WAAAY down below--I almost didn't see it!! Post up here from now on where we can get a good look!!! :-) You're doing great!! peazy
Mornin...
Methman you crack me up! Dayum if i hung out on a Martha's board i think suzieneedshelp would be either in a straight jacket or suzieneedsburial.
Wut is up with this board?? No new posts of question allowed since 6/8????
Bmac darlin....wussup? Ya got another addiction to boards none the less. WEll maybe me too and trouble is i cant get on the net much now living with my parents..so i am so deprived here in TAllahassee. Wah wah. Actually that is so fascinating about us with this disease.. how the drugs are just a symptom and we get addicted to so many other things even in recovery...work, sex, power, self pity, food, internet, whatever!!!! That really proves to me that i need to change how i live my life and more important how i think!
Love you 2 men...(hmmm... am i addicted to men!?...ya think?)
winks..Suzie
Why are you beating yourself up here? Jesus,knows we all fall way short. We all here have been thru this I am still hurting so I'll just take another one syndrome. It isn't new. Just hang with us and learn how to cope. There are many people here that care so 'vent on'! Bmac
you can dump here any time ,
does your doctor know everything that you are going through.
also most addicts are highly intelagent.
peace!!!!!!!!!hippy