22 days...and I'm about to smack attitude outta some ppl...will these feelings last?

[Sweetness91]

So I have 22 days and I find I'm getting more irritable by the minute...since I've started the detox I've snapped at my husband several times to say the least. I apologized the other day for being such a bit€h...and he said he actually likes it...lol. I've always been one to bite my tongue to keep peace but I just can't seem to do that much these days. Did anyone else go thru that with w/d's? I don't like feeling like I'm being a total bit€h but I can seem to stop what comes outta my mouth!! Geez.

[sandy535353]

haha, glad I made someone laugh! You know it's true. My poor hubby, stayed waaaay away from me this weekend. He was a sergeant in the army for 20 years, but nothing ever prepared him for the madness of me. He's got the patience of a saint. Today I dropped a few more grams, and belive me, my body feels every missing particle of it. This will be about a 3 day stint till I level out again. GRRRRRRRRRRRR Im now down to about 13.68mg's, and even that low, ***** the life outta you.Ill stay at that level for about 2 weeks and cut donw again. By the way it was 3 weeks I was at 45mg's, so not bad.

[Sweetness91]

OMG Sandy....you just gave me the greatest laugh!! Sorry...I couldn't help it. But I envisioned that happening and thought..."OMG...that sounds just like me right now!!"  Thanks for posting because I really did need a good laugh!! ;)

[sandy535353]

In my opinion, while on the pills, nothing pissed me off, I was always feeling good and the normal things that would make me angry, I just sloughed off. Six years ia a long time to not give a crap. So, after the pills, I feel the suppressed angers are coming to a head. Its our brains way of learning to think all over again. Anger is the first emotion to shine thru. The brain hasnt yet learned to be happy yet. It only knows the one emotion that we used, which was a fun emotion.. Give it time, things will slowly be funny again, patience will slowly come into play. I am expreriencing this exact thing right now. I tried openiing my front door this morning and the rug got stuck in the door. I went beserk! The dogs went running. I felt bad after and told them I was sorry as they wagged their little tails. They arent use to seeing mommy this way. I even laughed afterward, rrealizing what a lunatic I must of sounded like. It'll come in waves until the whole brain thing balances out. Ive been thru this 3 times.

[Sweetness91]

Thanks for the reassurance Blondie!! :) I've got my fingers n toes crossed. And my legs...cause they hurt so damn bad! Lol.

[BlondeChick10]

It won't ; I am optimistic ! Congrats on the 22 days that rocks.

[Sweetness91]

I just hope it DOES pass! I wasn't like this before the pills so I hope I won't be after I've recovered somewhat. I've always been kinda conservative & reserved so the bit€hiness coming from me is new...very new. Lol. Put it this way....all the kids in the neighborhood end up at my house after school and/or on weekends. I think it's great they see me as a "cool & nice mom"...and that they feel safe at my house. And I just hope that doesn't change. Here lately I've only been allowing my son & daughter to each have one friend over at a time. Otherwise I WOULD be totally insane. I really think my crabbiness is coming from just being sick & tired of the symptoms I'm still having. Day after day of leg pain & anxiety are really getting to me. I got 22 days though....surely this can't last much longer. Lord I hope not anyway :(

[BlondeChick10]

Sweete- I feel you on all of the above.. The end of day is the worst for me.  By then I don't want to see anyone or do anything. My first few days I was a miserable b"!?,. to everyone around me.. My poor husband ..lucky for him the work week he was away so when I saw him that Saturday morning you would have thought I would have been nice NO utterly rude and he tried  to be super nice to me and that would make me even more angry!  t work I pretty much tried interact as little as possible for a few days.  By Sunday my poor husband was like let's go out do some shopping, dinner just NICE and me the normally calm easy going mellow woman was filled with unnecessary rage.  He came home from his business trip with bronchitis that he had lingering from Christmas that he refused to se the MD for and every time he coughed I snapped I finally went to the store and purchased every strength and brand of cough syrup and practically threw it at him!    I explored why I was having these feelings and I was able to admit to my self that they were because my facade was coming to an end and I wasn't sure how I was going to handle not taking a Vic in the morning to get my day started .. Also, I was angry because I think he minimized my circumstances and didn't really understand the magnitude of the pills controlling me. He threw up from a Percocet after his minor knee surgery and opted for Tylenol and Advil .  He is an attorney but I don't think he savvy regarding life and culture as most of his work is contracts and  pensions. I still don't think he understand that prescriptions are abused he thinks that because my Dr gave it to me it was ok.  He doesn't know about the manipulating that I did over this past summer.  So just vent on this site with me; I pretty much dont have anywhere else to vent.  I have not disclosed my issue to anyone other than him.  It gets better and try to stay calm with me. I know this forum helps me with maintaining sanity : ) I am also going to eventually tell my BFF  as she tried to call me out this past summer and I dismissed her and her assertion.

[Sweetness91]

There's not much I haven't snapped at lately. Makes me feel bad when I do it too :(  Days like this I just wanna be left alone...I don't wanna think about the dishes in the sink, or having to pick my daughter up at her friends house, or WTH to make for dinner!  Lol. I especially dread making dinner these days because my evenings are the worst it seems and standing over a stove is the last thing I feel like I can do. And we've always been ones to have big dinners...meat, potatoes&gravy, veggies, & some type of bread. Not lately though!! My poor family must think I'm quitting on them.

[Jordan_J]

I would snap at my partner and cats lol. Tell me cats to f**k off and stop looking at me or making cute sounds :P If my partner entered the room my eyes would light up in rage and he would slowly back out haha.

[annonnus22]

I am the same way so grouchy..everything my bf says or does just irrates me congrats on day 22

[Sweetness91]

Omg...the littlest things set me right off!

Famous remarks of the week: (and keep in mind everyone says I'm the sweetest most laid back person...even before the pills)

#1...Oh well maybe YOU should do it...NOW!
#2...dont be a prick...it doesn't suit you.
#3...you even think about doing that, and you're gonna have a hard time thinking for a good while cause I'll kick your a$$.
#4...you seem irritated...maybe you should get outta my face.(hehehe...it was me who was irritated)

I know there's been more...those are the ones I can remember at the moment. I seriously do wanna smack the attitude out of ppl!! Or just smack them because it would make me feel better??!! I already txtd my husband, who was in the next room btw, and told him I was feeling like super bit€h and really irritated and to look out! His response was "look out for what"...like he wants to know what I'm gonna do BEFORE it happens...all I said is "I don't know...we'll see"....and had to smile sweetly. Somebody will hate me by the days end!

[sandy535353]

haha welcome to the club. On meds, I am so happy nothing bothered me. Im weaining, almost done, but I get pissed and frustrated at everything. Celebrities on tv with their phony makeup/botox faces, make me cringe. My husband, yeah he too, how dare he breath! Cant stand when he has an attitude, cause I want to change that right off his face too. Even when he dont have one, just how dare he, everything! grrrr. I know it'll go away, been thru this before. But for the time being, he best sleep with 2 eyes open. lol Sometimes, I cant stand MYSELF!!!!

[BarbRTR]

I am day 20 and my inner beast is awakening too! Its quite strange, as my entire life I have been sweet and overlooked annoying poeople/stuff easily.
Not now. I feel like I could knock somebody out! And that wouldn't work to well. I can't fight. I would get my butt kicked at 100 lbs lol.

I HOPE this goes away. In all seriousness, I don't like these feelings, they are scary. Very foreign. I'm afraid I changed me for good. To a mean bad person!

Congrats on 22 days!

[YesLife4Me]

Yeah, I want to get up and b1tch slap someone!    LOL!  

[luvabugga]

Major bitchiness here too!

But.... 1.  I never apologize...and 2.  He NEVER said he liked it...lol.

[ricart70]

I think I have actually become nicer.Maybe it's a guy thing lol  great job on your 22 days    lol breathing in and out all day

[luvabugga]

LMAO with the breathing!!!!

And the slurping noises when he eats???  Oh that bowl of cereal is gonna be right over your head in a minute! lol

[conhall]

hahahaha! This made me laugh I was a BIG Ole BIt*h I would get so irate with my guy Breathing in and out all day long How dare he LOL :)
Stay strong and it does pass :)

[toothfairie]

oh girl!  preaching to the choir!  i had NO filter when going thru this!  i have to bite my tongue and catch myself all the time now...emotions are coming back online now and it's a good and bad thing...lol  just take deep breaths when you get irritated and it will pass somewhat....

maybe i was a closet b**ch...and didn't know it til i got clean...hahahaha