Hello Is anyone here tonight?

[sportsmom3]

I am new to the forum. I have been reading a lot. Just wondering if anyone is around tonight?

[FLaddict]

I am just logged in for the night... How ya doing today??

[emilyanne]

Welcome to the forum!!
How are you? What brings you here, if you don't mind my asking?

[judgesheart]

Welcome to the family!!!

[sportsmom3]

Doing fine, I suppose. I don't really have a story. I am just the typical married mother of three, living in suburbia America. I have had five surgeries in 3 years, and the pain pills I believe are somewhat out of control. It isn't a matter of if, but when I stop....not one soul knows of my issues....so this forum is a Godsend....WOW what awsome, caring people. I don't really have any questions. They have all been answered by reading, and reading.  

[sportsmom3]

WOW.....Thanks for the welcome.

[FLaddict]

Well I am glad to see you aren't lurking anymore.. I find it helps to just chat with others that are in your shoes..  You don't have to have any questions.. I really didn't when i came either since I had worked at a inpatient rehab and I was clean prior to the pills from heroin for 6 years..

[road2recovery]

you are not alone..This is the best place for you to be..No one judges we just try to help
welcome
god bless

[sportsmom3]

You are so sweet to everyone. I admire you. Nothing in particular brings me here. It is nice to connect with people that understand. At the moment my family is gone, so I am having some peace. Just sitting on my back porch with my laptop.....kind of chillin after a very long week at work.

[sportsmom3]

Got to go for awhile. My little boy (8) wants to come home....so much for my peace. Be back later. Thanks.

[emilyanne]

Thank you for the kind words! I am here if you need me. We are all here if you need us! Should be off and on all night.

[sportsmom3]

Thanks for helping me out of my lurk!!!! I totally commend you for kicking heroin....is it true that hydro/oxy are truly as addicting as heroin? I had a good friend in Texas that was clean from heroin, I loved her dearly. Unfortunately she started using and I lost her( i mean we quit hanging out and then I moved home)....she was the most awesome person, and so strong in my opinion...I learned a lot about addiction from her. I somehow never saw myself here, and not because I am above.. God knows.....this wasn't my vision......no body is out of reach of addiciton.............it happens to the best of us.

[sportsmom3]

Thank you for posting. I really appreciate it.....dang, this is hard

[FLaddict]

Well.. I do feel that they were as addicting for me but in different ways.  As far as a "high" feeling pills do not compare to heroin. I do believe for myself that because I was formerly a heroin addict I was ALOT more likely to get addicted to pills as I did. I really knew better but can't change it now. I also think once I crossed that line from taking them as prescribed and abusing them the guilt and shame took me further down.  And then when I was told by my chiropractor that my back was messed up pretty bad it was another excuse to keep on taking em as I did.
How bout you?? How did it all start? When did you realize it was a problem? Does you hubby know?? What made you find this site??

[sportsmom3]

I am not sure when it became a problem. I have been through withdraws a few times and didn't even know that's what it was. I thought I had a flu bug. Probably in the last six months it has gotten worse. I still have legitimate pain, and legit scripts as well......it's just how I choose to use it. I had an MRI on my shoulder today. I very likely have a torn rotator....so ouch. I have had surgery after surgery so I was always on meds....and then bam, and I am thiinking how in the h*** did this happen......No, hubby does not know, at least not the full extent. He is a very good man, I just haven't found/decided if and when the words to splill it all out. That's why I am here....I found this site literally just googling different things about meds, interactions, etc. I take Zoloft, estradiol, and Adderall on a regular basis, and do not abuse at all...I am ADD queen......that's why the Adderall.....so that's my story, and I'm sticking to it.....

[FLaddict]

Yikes.. torn rotator.. ouch is right.. You will tell your hubby when the time is right.. I couldn't hide it from mine.. He was always seeing me gooble pills so he knew. He is really supportive though.. so I am lucky. He is even paying for me to go to the Sub doc for a quick taper soon so I can be off and then start seeing a reg doc to get an MRI and find out what the heck is wrong with my neck.. I want to know what my pain is really like without meds before I go though.. it may not be as bad as it seems. and then if I need meds in the future hubby and I have a plan to make it work this time

[fishmeal]

Hey Sportsmom, It's Friday nite and I'm just barely here after a meeting tonight.

[sportsmom3]

Good for you, for going to a meeting. Keep hangin in, I know I am, at least trying.