i to have the same story if my husband knew i was detoxing from methadon(22days still feel like total ****) he would throw me out! Its hard ! i love him and are boys more then anything!!! each day seems to get better its just the head games that will suck you in
wrks, I appreciate what you're saying but with all due respect, you do not know my situation. I 100% agree that it would be far better to be able to be honest with the peple around me - my wife and family. But the fact is, if I do, I lose my wife and child. Period. I have a history of alcohol abuse which I lied about too many times but always had to come clean in the end. The mistrust I caused was so great that she point blank told me that if I ever did this again, I'm out. So, I have plenty of motivation to quit, and have no intention of going back. I don't need permission to use, I have the choice to use if I want, and I'm choosing not to. I'd rather not do it this way, but its not worth losing my wife and child over it. SHe can think I have a nasty bug and that'll have to do.
Ella, physically I'ma bit better than I was, the killer is no sleep. I've deeliberately not used immodium on the basis that the diarreah was part of my body's way of detoxing. Today though, I did take it for the first time because I just needed a rest from 1-2 hourly visits to the flusher plus frankly, after 9 days of it my backside was getting extremely sore. So I decidede to give myself a bit of relief from it for a while, but I don't think it's a great idea to just stop the flow permanently if it's helping my body detox. My doc didn't recommend immodium at all, just rehydration drinks with lots of electrolytes. You're right about them finding out I guess. I actually don't think they will but I'm just not sure. If it happens, it happens and I'll deal with it then I guess. She'd just refer me to a drug rehab centre and I just wouldn't go! What's the point? They're not going to prescribe anything to help without me becoming an inpatient which isn't an option. Man, I just want this all to be over but I'm expecting at lesat another week f no sleep accrdng to mst of whaat I read on here...
I would be worried if Immodium has not stopped the diareaha(sp?) I'm sure you have already been that route with treatment at home. Did the dr. prescribe anything for it? You know, if they find out then, they find out. You can take it from there and get it over with and then get on the right track without any codine. I hope everything goes well with you.
Ella
Sounds like you are very worried about being "found out". How are you feeling now? Opiates are very difficult to stop. I wish you well.
My daughter was once told by her psychiatrist, "In recovery, you have to STOP lying. All the 12-step meetings and rehabs in the world cannot help if you can't start being honest."
I understand your desire for privacy; but I worry your desire for secrecy could prolong the dysfunction and give you permission to use again. The road through recovery is long and has many setbacks. The sooner you can be honest, the sooner you can move forward.
They say addiction is a disease of the entire family. Use caution when trying to do this solo.
Good luck.
thanks for the info, it;s kinda reassuring but as I'm UK based, HIPPA means nothing to me. Like I said, I don't think they'd be particularly checking for drugs, at the moment the have no reason too. I'm just concerned that my blood might indicate it some way ie if you're an alcoholic, that'll show up clear as day in the liver function results - I know that's true because some years back I had numbers off the scale! but i have no idea whether the same is true for either opiates in general or codeine in particular. What if like many people here you'd been taking loads of hydros with the associated 'mixer' drug like acetimophen(?) - paracetomol here in uk. I know that damages the liver so presumably that might show in elevated levels of an associated enzyme or some other give away sign...
I'm assuming there'll be nothing incriminating in the stool sample but even there, I'm not certain...
Anyway thanks for replying, looks lke nobdy else is going to.
Your protected by HIPPA and its not standard to just randomly do a drug test without your permission-you have to sign for it i believe. prob checking blood counts, liver, thyroid,etc. check stool for ova and parasites and blood-thats the standard