cold turkey.. trying to get clean. short relaspe

[mindtwister1976]

hello ya'll, I've been trying to get off pain medication this whole month of october, i was taking 10-12 percs a day, and also some tramadol on top of that, sometimes i would substitute percs for vicodin, basically anything i can get my hands on...i started cold turkey on the 12th...and made it through till the 20th... on that day i had an accident, and thought i broke my hand.. so i went to the er. and found out it was not broken, but he gave me a script for vicodin..and also gave me one to take that night..so i couldnt resist..i took the pill..that night.. and the next day i filled the script..i thought i had things under control so i took 1 pill that day..and a pill the next..and 4 the next day..and then dropped back down to 2 pills...and then went cold turkey again.. this is my 3rd day cold turkey...the reason i started using again.. is because i had no energy..and im really depressed..im really starting to feel that thing are not going to return to normal... i really do want to get off these drugs and be drug free.. but i am not happy living this way.. waking up depressed everyday...is it normal to feel this way , this far in?? did those 10 pills i took within a 5 day period set me back? when is things going to look up for me? i dont want to start using again..those days i went cold turkey.. have me scared.. those withdrawals were tough! but i wanted to be clean bad enough to do it.. any advice?

[tooklastdose]

The ten pills should really be not much of a set back.  Keep on going.
Your will do great.

[ZJILLIAN]

Boy can I relate to that getting up depressed everyday! I have been off pain pills for 43 days now and I no longer wake up depressed! I even knew that when I was using. I knew that the pills were making me depressed (and they do, well known fact). and The low energy is also pills and a big part of the energy thing is the depression you talk about.

START OVER AGAIN> The accident  was an impossible situation. How could you resist, especially so early in you WD. You will and can feel much much better; this is just the pills talking (evil cunning little pills speak to us in this nasty way.) This time be sure no pills in house. You have had a really good head start and you will feel better.

Just keep posting and reading the other posts. Try not to let your fear take over. We are here and lots of people have been exactly where you are. Keep Going!

[IWantMyLifeBack5525]

Hello and good job on wanting off these horrible drugs!!! I am not so sure I could have resisted the temptation of someone handing me an actually pill and a script!!!! they probley would have been gone in one day....but that said I was 11 days clean and slipped up and took 3 one day and one the next (percocet) and my withdrawl symptoms didnt come back...now mentally was another story...I am 13 days clean again and I am still struggling with the mental part but it does seem to be getting better...I also have no energy so I know how that feels and you have to FORCE yourself to do something, belive me I know thats hard I am lucky I get out of the house with clean clothes on in the morning...but in the end it will be worth it...and really even on the pills our moods (well mine was) were all over the map anyway..happy for a lil while but when the pills wear off cranky and tired....I am also dealing with leg pain that with any luck will go away soon....but what I am trying to ay is I dont think your withdraws will start over...you can do this!!! we can all do this...pick yourself up dust yourself off and start over...just dont take anymore...YOU CAN DO THIS! Sorry for rambling! :)

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