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[ibeinkin]

I have been threw tons of doctors,specialists and of course every drug you can think of.Here's my thing.
YES...I hate having to take that nasty tasting methadone EVERY day!there's no doubt about it.I also hate taking those damn pain PILLS!no doubt,right.......But,I am in legitimate pain daily.I only take what I think will work.Not what they say will work...on good day's....I don't need anything.(well,close to nothing)Now on bad day's well,the **** doesn't work anyways.Takes the edge off is all.So here's the thing.I've been on methadone for just over 3yrs.at 70mg a day.I've been wheening my self down to 50mg a day.Going to start doing 30mg next week.I can't sleep anyways,just one of those ppl.How bad are the Cramps going to be? i have other health issues....my heart is fine!Now I have been through withdrawls more then once and for more then one drug.But man,I'm fearing that this is going to be the worst ever.I've dropped 25pounds the last time I went thru withdrawls,was curled up in a ball,sweating,hitting the john,all that great stuff.Just tell me it won't be that bad!I hope.Should i keep wheening or just say f*** it?all these horror stories kinda worry me.My wife say's that as long as the doctors(yes) say go I shouldn't screw around........I just don't know?

[gnarly_1]

HI .....many peoplefind droping from 70 to 50 a breeze its when you get into the lower doses that it gets ruff with methadone 20 was shear hell for me and i struggled for 6 weeks just to get 2mg lower 20 is a stumbling block for lots of people I help most of the methadonioanas out your taper plan is not a good one your body will have no time to adjust its going to feel like the skinand mussels are being pealed from your bones this is how it has been discribed to me....I detoxed off 150mg did it in 8 1/2 mo witch is faster then most clinics like you to go I payed for it going in and out of withdrawals along the way.....I have to advise you what your doing is going to be painful and last a long time you dont just decide to get off methadone and do a 50% taper it dosent work that way unless you into pain be realistic with your taper a few mg at a time we cant discust taper plans in the open forum but your heading for a disaster trust me I have done this with lots of people its no time to be superman you could get yourself into some life threting situations here they dont even bring you down that fast in detox under perfect conditions let us know what you decide keep posting for support good luck and God be with you......Gnarly

[ibeinkin]

Thanks.Really appreciate any and all advice.....but here's the thing...I haven't been sick.Not ;like before anyways.A lil cramping and of course can't sleep for crap.yes,I am doing my own taper.this is how it went for me...so far anyways.got tired of the pain clinics and doctor giving me everything for month's upon month's.Just to walk in to"We are taking you off of everything.Imediately!!!"...hey,thanks for the withdrawls..how fun?
then a friend say's"Ever hear of the clinic." Next thing ya know your on 25mgs and going up...when i stopped at 70 and stayed there,they kept saying"are you sure?You might want to get up to atleast 125mg and stabelize.Then start going down....so now I'm down to alil less then fifty,of course they test every month to make sure I'm clean!is that messed up or what...a drug test to make sure your on drugs..hahahah
My wife say's to slow down to,but,man that money is hard to come by nowadays.the way I'm figuring this out is I guess when I finally take it down to 20-25mgs I might as well just suck it up,and get it on.but,with what I do,I can not have the shakes....just can't,I'm not looking forward to the MONTHS of feeling like crap.
Thanks ,I really appreciate the info.
    Marc(ibeinkin)

[atthebeach]

Heloo and welcome to MH.congrats on wanting to be free from the chains ond bondage of addiction. Are you doing your own taper? To drop from 50mg to 30mg in one week is a heck aof a jump you will be sick my friend. My husband tapered from 100mg to 20mg in about 6 months. He was ok during the taper. He went cold turkey from 20mg and also 8mg of xanax. Sick.sick.sick like run over by a truck. Ran into a wall. Dropped from a building sick for months and months. So maybe go a bid slower... but my husband jumped at 20mg because people taper and wean all the way down to 1.2.3.mg and stay on that dose and then when they come off they are still sick for a long time.unfortunately it is a very hard detox. You have to be strong and really want to be free.my husband was on that crap for 10 yrs. Its poison.look on the bottom right of this page under health pages and use the thomas recipe.minus the valium and the amino acid protocol. Stick clost to the forum. I will be praying for the LORD to strengthen you and to help you
Sending hugs and prayers
Debbie