I made it to 100 days

[solost170]

I made it to a 100 days clean triple digits, from the scared girl who first posted on this site 100 days ago that day my life was falling to hell all around me, my body felt like it was dying my mind raced along with my heart I was shaking so bad it was hard for me to even wright the words of help. many nights of sweats rls and anxiety and so many other things that goes with detox if it was a sympton I had ever one of them and then came up with some new ones. laughing I can laugh about it now but back then all i wanted was it to end to feel normal to be able to do the things that sober ppl can do.

I can honestly say that while I was using I lost myself the things I loved all I cared about was when was I gonna get another pill to make the pain go away. but when I finally embrassed the fact that I had to face the pain and put it away and deal with instead of burrying it deep inside a black hole.
i have a 100 days of being of the pills and I awake with a new look on life. I'm happy to say that even thou it was it hard and it was like climbing a huge mountain when I got to the top I saw the world and mysef. I can honestly say the saying its always dark before the light began. It was dark but now its bright my words are simply and true believe in yourself you can do this you can find the road to light and yourself it may be twisted and long and full of hurdles but at the finish line it is a wonderful thing. when you feel like you cant take another step that it will never end read the post of the ppl who have made it and find hope cause if they can do it so can you there is life after pills. love and light solost ps I have talked about my art work and I'm getting ready to post some pics on my profile pls take a look and tell me if they are good enough to sell thank you

[weaver71]

Awesome! You are an inspiration to many. I never get sick of hearing such positive posts from such amazing people. Congrats.

[ImDONENoMore]

OMG I can't believe this one got past me - I'm SO sorry I didn't respond sooner but please know my CONGRATULATIONS to you is just as sincere!!!!  This is SO great!!  :) (day 104!!  YIPPEE!)

[nursegirl6572]

What crazy progress!!!  Celebrate every minute!  Good for you!

[selfinduced]

Great post....may the healing continue.....

[solost170]

first I just want to say how much I appreciate and how much it means to me to be excepted as one of you. and not be such a newbee each one of you have given me hope and support and I can never express in words how much it has meant to me. I love each and everyone one of you, each one of you brings something diff to the table it is the perfect combination of love support and yes even tough love cause sometimes we addicts need the cold hard facts. sometimes it just cant be sugar coated. but free to answer your question on how I did it was a combination of things first I had to realize and except that I had a problem and face it, then I had to quit taking the pills get through detox and this site my family and friends were a huge support system with out that support I dont think I would have made it many nights I would spend talking to my kids or my bf or my aunt who is a recovering addict she has several years under her belt she sends me the 12 steps to recovery and when I'm weak she talks me off the ledge. plus I have started to work with other addicts reaching out to them in my own county I do not claim to have the experience to be an addict councelor but I can help with my own exp and help and support them in there time of need. they can call me when they feel like they are about the cave and I can talk them off the ledge. I have started having lil get 2gethers where we can meet in my home and talk about why we use and what makes us want to use. I have faced being raped by my dad when I was 18 he first started stalking me and controlling me you see I diddnt know my father until I was eighteen. that is another story and a long one I will only talk about it in pm. but I have been facing and dealing with the things that I have gone through in my life the abuse the lose of my baby and how I lost it and no it had nothing to do with using. it is a heart breaking stroy but to be honest how i did it was I made my mind up that I diddnt wanna live that way anymore I wanted to be free and I committed to it with all my heart and soul to me the key to sobriety is wanting it more than you want to breath. cutting all my sources and comen out in the open when you cant hide behind the lies and you have nothing more to hide thend the healing can begin cause detox is just the start of being sober. I basically stuck my claws in and held on tight and never gave up. I have been through alot in my life one day I plan on writing a book one day you may see my story on life time it was that bad. but I look at it like if I can survive all that then I can beat this addiction music helped me alot also I listened to the song that was playing in the car as they rushed me to hospital and I rememeber how sick I was and I never ever wanna go back there. everyone has a diffrent path they take to find there sobriety and them selfs. I dont plan on going anywhere I feel like god has put in this path to help others to reach out and give hope to the ones who are still in the dark and dont know where to find the light that is the reason we get on here to help ourselves and to help others. there is healing in reaching out to others who need love and understanding and answers god knows it was my life line for so very long. even thou I have never laid eyes on any of you or heard your voice. your words reach out to me and hold me and help me carry on I hope this sheds light on how I have done it. and even with 101 days I know that temptaion is just around the corner you always have to keep your guard up cause one pill will lead you down a dark road and I just dont wanna go that way. love and light your friend and fellow addict cause even in recovery I'm still an addict and that is something I can never forget

[Free2agoodhome]

Congrats........how did you doi it?

[MikeyCy]

Solost170- reading this have me such hope that I can make it to where you are right now! I'm only 20 yrs old and I have takes pills for the past month and  on and off for two years. I'm realizing that I can't do this to my self and in way too young to just slip under this spell. That's why I want to take control of this before I seriously slip too far under!! If there is any way you can contact me to help me out I would appreciate that so much!!! I have some questions and am kinda looking for someone to look up to for advice and help. But most of all CONGRATS! You are an inspiration!!

[smiles4eva]

So happy for you! Congratulations :)

[cleanguy]

What an incredible post... definitely inspires all of us to keep going. Half way to triple digits myself and will remember your post... thank you and excellent job!

[atthebeach]

100 days is awesome. congrats!!!
keep on keepin on......

[kyle505]

Wonderful. There are several new people who need to read this post. You worked very hard and deserve every minute of happiness. I'm so proud of you.

[Jen4life12]

Thank you for posting your sobority days.  I think that alot of us that are at the beginning of this journey seriously don't think they can do it, I know I am scared to death right now.  But know someone sat where I am right now, and can admit and say how scary and hard it really was, and you have made it this far, is such an inspiration. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!!!  This is my support system, and Your post gave me just what I needed, HOPE.

[Ben727]

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you! What an amazing work in progress!!

[Nursey7]

Congrats on 100 days; I know you are proud and should be!!! Keep up the good work and sweet spirit ;-)

[Brightfutureahead]

Great post solost. I knew you could do it! I love reading your posts :)

"They say it's always darkest right before dawn."

[vicki595]

I'm so happy for you!  Good job!

[Nighthawk61]

Congrats on your first 100 days, more gifts to come, always stay with us that are continuing on in their recovery, we would so HATE to lose you, you are one of us now, enjoy your long term sobriety, three months is a big deal, are you getting your chip in NA? Sounds corny, but i do love my chips....

[gnarly_1]

Hey congrats on 100 days you doing great keep up the good work and always work recovery
.......Gnarly

[dominosarah]

Well look at you go!!  Congrats on 100 days!  Recovery looks good on you~

[overopiates]

Wow 100days.thats fantastic.Ur sound really happy.Its nice to just be happy sober.Congratulations.

[Sonrissa]

Solost, you are now Sofound! Congrats on the 100 days! You've done amazing and should be so very proud! Keep moving forward, and keep sharing your journey! You give everyone such hope and courage! All the very best to you!

[selfinduced]

Hey Soloist! Way to go on your 100 days! I just knew you'd get here. Enjoy  every minute of your new life free of pills, you earned it!

[kkcopacetic]

Congratulations!!!  When I see your tag " solost", I cant help but think of the line from Amazing Grace, " I was lost but now Im found". You are an inspiration!! Keep up the good work...........kk

[Norco1947]

Hi ,
WoW 100 days >
Your post was so true . Life can be good again . Thanks for posting that  100 days can give you back your life  .........Ron