Aa
please help me
I am a 37 yr old female. I am a single mother of a 13 yr old boy. My parents died (murder,suicide) when I was just 14. I have no extended family. My son's father is in a different state and has no contact with us at all. I couldn't even find him if I tried. My problem is that I have borederline personality disorder, I am bipolar, and I have lupus. I have prided myself on relying solely upon myself and I must say that I have done quite well for the most part. 9 years ago I made the worst mistake of my life by getting involved in a relationship with a man who owns a few well established businesses with a very well to do income. He got me into cocaine...BAD MOVE on my part...we were married 2 years later. We have been married for 7 years. I do cocaine every day of my life. He still lives with the mother of his kids whom he was never married to because he says his 21 year old daughter, who at 12, didn't get along with my, then 4 yr old son, will run away if he moves in with me..so he comes every morning and leaves cocaine at my bedside....he feeds me when I wake then gives me cocaine til he leaves at 7pm, then he leaves me a pile of cocaine to get through the night. I am in no physical condition to work, I can no longer care for myself and I have gone over the edge many times......I have LITERALLY BEGGED HIM....not to give me anymore cocaine....I have BEGGED to go to REHAB.....We have no medical insurance, so I have been dealing with my lupus and mental illnesses on my own.......I don't know what to do...If I was handed a miracle of being able to get medical attention and rehabilitation..I am faced with another dilemma...no one to care for my son while I recover....I do not want him in foster care....I refuse that as an option.....HELP ME PLEASE..............I have lost my independence, my confidence, my beauty, and my will to live...... ALL OF MY CRIES HAVE FALLEN UPON DEAF EARS............................
Ya see, this is what really chapps my ***, why do some people come here and put their two cents into things and then not back it up. Now, this girl is on obvious, desperate need of serious help on many different levels. She knows she needs help and wants help or wouldn't have come here and asked for it. If one of us were told we needed to be locked up when we first came here, would you keep coming on and posting? I know that when I came here I was accepted, no questions asked. ANd I have made many friends over the last 8 months and if not for some of these people I wouldn't be where I am now. I don't see how hurting or scaring this woman more is going to help her. Yes, she needs to leave the guy, but we are not relationship counselors and yes, she needs to get professional help for her mental state, but we are not psychiatrists and she DEFINITELY needs professional help for her serious addiction, and although we are not N/A or addiction counselors, we are educated enough as a "COLLECTIVE GROUP", to friggin help this woman a little....A LITTLE.... if nothing at all.....I mean, my goodness. Has the demeanor of this forum changed so much that we can't look past all the bickering to help this woman.....
I agree, but I think it was an accident. Or, a large cry for help.
?? Who knows...
Lisa
?? Who knows...
Lisa
Why do you keep posting the same post over and over. We are here to listen and help you just like we are for others as well as ourselves. But when you post over and over its makes it hard to others who post and is pushed down to the next page cause you keeop posting the same message over and over. I wish you luck. Try talking to us instead of posting the same thing over and over. Who else agrees. I am not trying to be rude. But if you tell us more instead of reposting then we can maybe offer you other suggestions :)
Yes ! lock her up and throw away the key!...Better yet I need to diet so lock me up so I won't be able to over eat!!
Sounds ridiuclous doesn't it
Sounds ridiuclous doesn't it
Hey Beach, if you will note below where I answered the same post, I am in total agreement with everything you said. TOTAL AGREEMENT.
Love, Cindy
Love, Cindy
criticising , no we are pointing out that you need to read the post before dispensing advice ...because one of these times you may dispense advice that could be dangerous because you don't pay attention to the post.
Avis
Avis
It definitely sounds like you have hit rock bottom. Which is usually when an addict has the desire to truly quit. You need to rid yourself of your so-called partner. HE sounds as if he is using you for a seperate life. He is living with someone else, but married to you? He is doing nothing but keeping you in a mental state to which you are ok with his actions and this life. That is no environment for your son to be in. You desperately need help. It doesn't sound like you have any help nor are you in the mental state to help yourself. Try calling an N/A hotline, try 911. Try anything. Please. For your well being and your son's. Are you afraid of this man? Do not let him in your house. Do you have a friend which whom can take your son for a week or two? Or maybe you can even go to a friends with your son, so this way when your Husband comes to bring you your drugs you won't be there. YOu need help, which I can see you are fully aware of, but this forum can only help you so much. We are here for you and can support you, but you need to get professional help. You are trapped in the world of addiction and also in a very bad mental state to be allowing what is going on. I don't mean to be harsh, but you need to find some sort of help. I truly wish you all the best and hope that you find the help you need. Get as far away from that ***** as you possibly can.
Please email me if you need to talk or anything. I will help you as much as I can. I promise.
Lisa
Please email me if you need to talk or anything. I will help you as much as I can. I promise.
Lisa
I'm glad you guys are all criticing my posts and dwelling on that........she posted 10 times in desperation I'm glad to see that your trying to help her out........
So I will back off this totally and let you professionals handle it........sorry...........
So I will back off this totally and let you professionals handle it........sorry...........
id reccomend you find someone who loves you and ask for help.your boyfriend cant really love you or he would help you get clean when you beg. you can do this but no-one can do it for you. you are going to have to get serious .
The reason why I say you have to stop with the mountains of cocaine is because i used to do the same thing a guy used to drop me off two eight balls every morning at 9am like clock work for a year.......so I know how it is to have that going on every day after day after day........and it is impossible to deal with anything when your so hammered on cocaine like that..........
Plus your blood pressure is very high, your pulse is jamming.............
Please you need to somehow stop so you can get your thoughts together people are here that hopefully can help and try to answer your questions..........
Were here to listen unheard your very welcome here........
Plus your blood pressure is very high, your pulse is jamming.............
Please you need to somehow stop so you can get your thoughts together people are here that hopefully can help and try to answer your questions..........
Were here to listen unheard your very welcome here........
I saw her quote but I'm wondering where her main income comes from?
With her medical problems she has to have some kind of medical insurance...through someones work or Social Services........
But doing mountains of cocaine everyday has to stop........or what will ever change or get better...?
With her medical problems she has to have some kind of medical insurance...through someones work or Social Services........
But doing mountains of cocaine everyday has to stop........or what will ever change or get better...?
Nothing in your life will change or get better until you throw his *** out...........period..........
Tell him to take his *** and his mountains of Cocaine with him and get rid of him he is killing you....well your helping out a lot but if he was not there where would you get the money to keep
this cocaine habit........
cocaine is a very serious drug and this guy is using you and your house for very selfish reasons I hope you don't think this is all out of love..........
Are you working? Do you have income coming in?
What do you do with your son while your at work?
Tell him to take his *** and his mountains of Cocaine with him and get rid of him he is killing you....well your helping out a lot but if he was not there where would you get the money to keep
this cocaine habit........
cocaine is a very serious drug and this guy is using you and your house for very selfish reasons I hope you don't think this is all out of love..........
Are you working? Do you have income coming in?
What do you do with your son while your at work?
I guess you want to make it perfectly clear you have a problem and demand attention.......
Reading your post from a dope world perspective is pretty typical........
First are you taking your bipolar meds.......????
This guy who moved in with you has to go.........
Reading your post from a dope world perspective is pretty typical........
First are you taking your bipolar meds.......????
This guy who moved in with you has to go.........
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