hello all, relapse for the ???? time

[bugsy89735]

Hello all,, I have been away for quite some time and now I am back. I am a 47 year old retired prison nurse who has been on a gamete of drugs which started with vic's perc's, methadone, and finally oxycodone 15's which I am presently withdrawing from at the moment. I have had 3 back surgery's including a fusion and right now my back is bad again and my left leg is weak and numb, which means I need another surgery , ugh, what a time to quit these drugs but I raelly have too. I am sick and tired of this life and dependence of the feeling you get ,, I have to find a more clearer feeling ,,I have been in the clouds for over 10 years!! This is day 2 of detox completely cold turkey with no help... I was taking maybe 10 15's a day that is 150mg's of oxy,, that's a little much so I am literally dieing at the moment.Me and wife had a blow last night because of this **** and its ruining my marriage of 25 years. I am going to find a local support group because I know I cant go alone. I have an additive personality inherited and genetically profound. Well thanks for reading and I need help so please feel free to post.. thanks to all,, bugs

[dominosarah]

Welcome back bugsy.  Im happy to hear you are going to reach out and get some recovery care as we cant do this alone.  Have your wife check into some type of care too.  Family members get the brunt end of our addiction.  Make your recovery the No.1 priority and the rest will fall into place.....keep posting       sara

[cathy5841]

Sorry bout the spelling. Can't find my glasses this mornin.

[cathy5841]

Hi bugs welcome back. Hreat udea to find a local support group. We ALL need that!  Sounds like u got a good plan. We are here to help you through it. Just keep postin!