I am just logged in for the night... How ya doing today??
Welcome to the forum!!
How are you? What brings you here, if you don't mind my asking?
Doing fine, I suppose. I don't really have a story. I am just the typical married mother of three, living in suburbia America. I have had five surgeries in 3 years, and the pain pills I believe are somewhat out of control. It isn't a matter of if, but when I stop....not one soul knows of my issues....so this forum is a Godsend....WOW what awsome, caring people. I don't really have any questions. They have all been answered by reading, and reading.
WOW.....Thanks for the welcome.
Well I am glad to see you aren't lurking anymore.. I find it helps to just chat with others that are in your shoes.. You don't have to have any questions.. I really didn't when i came either since I had worked at a inpatient rehab and I was clean prior to the pills from heroin for 6 years..
you are not alone..This is the best place for you to be..No one judges we just try to help
welcome
god bless
You are so sweet to everyone. I admire you. Nothing in particular brings me here. It is nice to connect with people that understand. At the moment my family is gone, so I am having some peace. Just sitting on my back porch with my laptop.....kind of chillin after a very long week at work.
Got to go for awhile. My little boy (8) wants to come home....so much for my peace. Be back later. Thanks.
Thank you for the kind words! I am here if you need me. We are all here if you need us! Should be off and on all night.
Thanks for helping me out of my lurk!!!! I totally commend you for kicking heroin....is it true that hydro/oxy are truly as addicting as heroin? I had a good friend in Texas that was clean from heroin, I loved her dearly. Unfortunately she started using and I lost her( i mean we quit hanging out and then I moved home)....she was the most awesome person, and so strong in my opinion...I learned a lot about addiction from her. I somehow never saw myself here, and not because I am above.. God knows.....this wasn't my vision......no body is out of reach of addiciton.............it happens to the best of us.
Thank you for posting. I really appreciate it.....dang, this is hard
Well.. I do feel that they were as addicting for me but in different ways. As far as a "high" feeling pills do not compare to heroin. I do believe for myself that because I was formerly a heroin addict I was ALOT more likely to get addicted to pills as I did. I really knew better but can't change it now. I also think once I crossed that line from taking them as prescribed and abusing them the guilt and shame took me further down. And then when I was told by my chiropractor that my back was messed up pretty bad it was another excuse to keep on taking em as I did.
How bout you?? How did it all start? When did you realize it was a problem? Does you hubby know?? What made you find this site??
I am not sure when it became a problem. I have been through withdraws a few times and didn't even know that's what it was. I thought I had a flu bug. Probably in the last six months it has gotten worse. I still have legitimate pain, and legit scripts as well......it's just how I choose to use it. I had an MRI on my shoulder today. I very likely have a torn rotator....so ouch. I have had surgery after surgery so I was always on meds....and then bam, and I am thiinking how in the h*** did this happen......No, hubby does not know, at least not the full extent. He is a very good man, I just haven't found/decided if and when the words to splill it all out. That's why I am here....I found this site literally just googling different things about meds, interactions, etc. I take Zoloft, estradiol, and Adderall on a regular basis, and do not abuse at all...I am ADD queen......that's why the Adderall.....so that's my story, and I'm sticking to it.....
Yikes.. torn rotator.. ouch is right.. You will tell your hubby when the time is right.. I couldn't hide it from mine.. He was always seeing me gooble pills so he knew. He is really supportive though.. so I am lucky. He is even paying for me to go to the Sub doc for a quick taper soon so I can be off and then start seeing a reg doc to get an MRI and find out what the heck is wrong with my neck.. I want to know what my pain is really like without meds before I go though.. it may not be as bad as it seems. and then if I need meds in the future hubby and I have a plan to make it work this time
Hey Sportsmom, It's Friday nite and I'm just barely here after a meeting tonight.
Good for you, for going to a meeting. Keep hangin in, I know I am, at least trying.