really struggling

[dres]

I have managed to cut my oxymorphone intake to 10mg a day for the last several days.I take it after work but by noon the next day I am already jonesing for my pill.Runny nose stomach ache,you all know the drill.I have read alot of negative stuff about methadone but last summer I went on 30mg a day and tapered down over 3 weeks and got clean with relative ease.Methadone didnt get me high it just kept me from getting sick.I gave up coke meth and alcohol 10 years ago and was happy for a long time.Two years ago I had 5 surgeries within 10 months and the opiate roller coaster ride began.I hate being a slave to chemicals and I just dont seem to have much joy in my life anymore.I have tried suboxone but that stuff made me feel terrible.I am considering the methadone again but l like I will just be trading one monkey for another.I feel so trapped and I just want to be happy a CLEAN again,but as most of you know the physical thing is the easy part.Opiates flat out haunt you long after you quit taking them.Help anyone?

[10356]

Hey dres Opiates do steal the thunder out off life.. You have put so much behind you just one more step and you are free of drugs.. Your story reads out a lot like mine.. I'm almost 3 mo. and happiness has actually found me or I found it.. You are only prolonging the inevitable kick our use.. The freedom of waking up clean with no dope sickness is enough to keep me going for awhile.. It is flu season time to catch the flu.. I really do hope you find the strength one more time for this last hurdle.. Life is to precious to squander in misery.. I have kept myself pretty busy and when I do reflect on pain meds I thank the good spirits I had cut off my supply as that was the deciding factor for me if I was going to roll with clean.. I wish you well on your journey.. lesa

[Florida_Guy737]

Like your taper plan;  if want to go more indepth on this to avoid the jonesing, pm me.  I also did a 3.5 week taper off the patches/percs and worked the whole time.  You're o your way and looks like you can make it w/o substituting another med...

Good Luck..

[bionic_man]

Dres,
How I look forward to 10 mg a day.  I'm tapering and am not there yet.  Sounds to me you could write a book based on your post but I guess the side effects are something we all have to go through.  I'm surprised though to the level each person feels.  I'm reading folks who have relatively minimal side affects vs. overwhelming effects others feel.  I keep thinking back to how I used to be, happy, viral and quick thinking.  When on Oxy I feel depressed, no sex drive whatsoever and in a continual brain cloud.  You will feel so much better when this is over and hopefully you will consider being a coach to the rest of us when we come off our drugs completely.  For some reason the phrase, misery loves company is true.  I don't wish this on anyone however there's peace in knowing I'm not alone and others have gone through these same feelings.  

Take care and good luck. Write in the forum as you see the need.

Bionic Man