Help getting through the beginning

[mrdude]

Hey everyone, I've been doing Lorcet 10's for about 7 months now, I would do 1 at a time, 3 - 4 a day, every single day. But now I want to stop, when I'm all out, I feel like ****, I wake up every morning with a sore stomach at first, then I use the restroom and them here comes the vomit. Mostly it's mucus but sometimes it's what I ate the day before. But also, I've lost over 70 pounds, I was 250 and now below 180, I don't have any appetite anymore, when I eat, it's very little. During the days, when I'm all alone. I get very depressed. I'm 20 years old. I'm also addicted to marijuana, which isn't as bad of withdrawals of the pills. When I'm alone, I'll think about my family and life. I think about the future and if they're still going to be here because I've lived with them my entire life and we're very close, but not like we used to be. I will think about things like that, including my pets and other things throughout the entire day. But when I get more pills, it all goes away. I don't care about them anymore, I just want to have my life back, I can't sleep in the mornings, I've changed. I used to be a very caring, well known person that everyone loved but over the last half year, I've sat at him with my addiction and just lived and loved life. I really wish I never started, It really started with a tooth ache but then turned worse, it doesn't hurt at all anymore and I wish the addiction and depression wouldn't either. How long does the depression stage last and when will this all be over? I'm sticking with not doing them anymore but I'd still like some help to get through all of this. Please, someone help me be the same person I used to be.

By the way, the very last one I did was Sunday afternoon, it's been nearly 3 days, 2 full days clean, I felt really good thgroughout the first day, the second hit me a little but now, I keep thinking about them but still won't do another.

[badsneakers]

Look...it won't Kill your Mom and she WILL take care of you...I went through this pretty much alone and it CAN be done...I'm on day five and doing well...

Mom already knows that you are taking the pills ( your not eating them, then how do you take them?)  Just tell her that you stopped taking them and think you might have been addicted and are withdrawling from them...it is a VERY common issue as doctors prescribe the stuff like it's candy some times...

I was only depressed for the first four days, not today (at least yet) but from what I have read it can go on for while...another place where talking to and crying on MOM will help you...I believe this!

I was hydro too and im in day five...third day was pretty tough, but fourth was a LOT easier for me and today is pretty glorious at the moment...

YOU CAN DO IT, STIMPY!

[mrdude]

When I say they know I take them, they think they're by mouth. They don't have any clue that I was abusing them. Here lately, the symptoms, the withdrawals and stuff, she thinks I'm sick or something and wants to go to the doctor. I already know what it is so that's what's making this even more harder. It's not easy to tell my mother what I'm doing. I believe that if I do what I want to do the next few weeks, I'll get through. I've read a lot of this stuff and it's helped a lot of people. I know that with you guys and God, I'll be right back riding around, playing sports like my school days in no time. Just the nights that's so hard to get through, and when I'm all alone. Those are the worst parts, it might sound corny but don't care, needs to be said. I don't get scared or anything, I just get very depressed. How long does it usually last?

[mrdude]

Oh yea, I'm going to be clean for good. They know I take them, it's Hydrocodone 650mg, sorry about that. They call them Lorcet 10s. I can't tell my family, it would kill them, especially my mother. I know with some support and if I continue what I'm doing. I'll get through, thanks a lot. Today's the 3rd day, most say it takes a week or 2, 4 days to go hopefully, lol. Thanks again, that helped with the mother thing, I really could but can't break her heart like that.

[badsneakers]

I don't know anything bout the drug you are on, but hang in there...there is life beyond drugs.  You are young and it sounds as if you have a good familly...do they know?  Can you tell them?  there is NO LOVE LIKE YOUR MOTHER"S!  turn to her, get a babysitter do what you have to, you are 2 days clean, shoot for the third! then the fourth! etc...

Good luck