Hi guys.. My name is Paul and to fully understand my situation, let me give you a little background. About 6 months ago, I was using opiates to get high. Perks and Oxys were my choice but 9 out of 10 times I was using Oxycoton because they were the easiest pill to find. I was using 80mg a day, sometimes more (up to 120mg of oxy). At first it was fun.. the feeling I got from these pills made me feel amazing. I was going to school FT and working PT and these pills would help me get through my day. After about almost a year of using, I tried to stop and reality set in. I could not stop and I knew I had a serious problem. I knew the only way to kick this addiction was to confront my parents.. so I did. Obviously, they were very upset and could not believe that I would do this. Although they were mad, they knew that I needed help and took me to the doctors (5 days later, after going through the w/d with my family). They prescribed me Suboxine and I thought my worries would be over. I was clean for 5 months.. feeling great and so happy because I finally got my life back. My parents were proud of me, my friends that knew I had this addiction were proud of me, and I was on top of the world. About a month ago, the doctors lowered my dossage to 1mg of suboxine.. I was feeling great but at that point, I was starting to get cravings for the OC again. I do not know why but as the dosses of suboxine got lower, my craving for OC began to get higher. I made the horrible mistake of buying an 80 about a month ago.. thinking it was going to be a 1 time thing.. and now I feel like I am right back to square one again. I have been using an 80mg of OC a day for about the last 3-4 weeks. I want to stop but I am afraid of going through the w/d again.. especially without my family. I do not want to tell them because I know I will break my mom and dads hearts. I feel like the biggest ******* and I can't believe I would get myself back into this place. I need help but I do not know what to do..